I know my last post was a rough one. Phew! Glad we made it through THAT week!
Felt like the time I was at Daytona beach and a big wave took me out. All I could feel was the confusion of being thrown upside down and the sting of saltwater up my nose. Thanks for dragging me out of the ocean y’all!! Your comments really helped me so much!
For a fun project (and to keep myself away from brownies), I decided to go through each and every comment that was left for me on my last post in the exact order that they were left and choose something from each comment to create a ‘poem’ of sorts. I went through them in chronological order. No skipping around. I would pull something, paste it and move to the next. One by one I pulled something whether a line or a word and pasted it into a new document. Creating a piece of writing that was crafted from the comments section! I looked at each and every one like someone searching for gold. I put them together like a mosaic. Because I was writing through a sadness. Through a frustration. And then slowly people walked up and began to leave something at my door. Some piece of themselves through their own words to remind me that I’m not alone.
So if you left me a comment on that post prior to today then you co-authored what is below! I took something from every comment whether it was a line or even just a word. But it’s there! Like a patchwork quilt! I then pasted it line by line. I had no idea what it would say to me in the end until I had pieced it all together, stepped back and then read it through. So consider it a group writing authored by you! I believe these words are not just written to me. They are for anyone that feels down. Anyone who struggles with obesity and food addiction. Self-condemnation. Or any other struggle that may come your way. And imagine that each and every line was written by a different person! So in the end you will see that not one person can relate to you but MANY!! I like that. Every single line really was written by a different individual and yet it reads with a common theme. That’s a lot of people who all have experienced a similar plight. I went through all the comments in chronological order too. I did not skip around. It was more fun that way! Call me crazy but this project entertained me for a bit. I may have to do it again sometime!
The words below are not my own. They are yours. Thank you so much for leaving me comments. They mean everything~!
A Comment Quilt
Concentrate on you. One minute at a time, if that’s all you can handle.
Please know you aren’t alone and there are people who totally understand.
Losing weight is effing hard!
God loves lost causes. A lot.
Death in the tomb was a lost cause that resulted in resurrection life–addiction can’t stand up against that.
You are strong, you are brave, you are beautiful.
I’ve been there, done that, hated myself, given up, started again, regained, more times than I care to remember
I get it!I get so frustrated with myself!
One meal at a time, one day at a time, and don’t give up
Your voice matters.
Live real life in the moment
You feel as if God has given up on you. Nothing can be farther from the truth.
“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” (Romans 8:1)
Love that. Just love that. No condemnation.
The truth is we are good enough as we are.
to claim the promise, “I can be content in all circumstances.” Choose you! Let go of struggle.
God doesn’t ever leave us
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? …
“For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Maybe the message really is for you
I feel profoundly unlovable so often
It isn’t fair for anyone to say just snap out of it, just do this, just do that
What you have done before you will do again, when you’re ready.
Scream a bit into the abyss! There’s still a spark inside you that hasn’t given up yet!
I got myself pretty lost somewhere along the way, but I’m not giving up on myself.
You’re worth it.
Have a good cry if that helps
Painful though they may be
Find your true self
Please, please never forget that there are so many out here who care so deeply for you and are sending you love and compassion.
I don’t have the answers, either, all I know is that I cannot give up trying.
You are right, it can be exhausting especially during those times when you have lost your “mojo”.
Keep the faith, your GOD is mighty and he has not abandoned you.
This is a journey that only those that have gone through it know.
I know what I need to do, but after life lets you down, you get stuck
Persevere no matter what life throws at you.
Keep living your life. Love your kids. Be gentle towards yourself. It will click when you least expect it.
We’re born this way—so self condemning!
I am fighting with you. The struggle is real. “There is no pit so deep that God is not deeper still.”
God’s sovereignty does not depend on your feelings or failings. He loves you very much. Keep fighting. You are brave.
Even if others try to discourage you I certainly understand your struggle
I believe in you! Please keep fighting the battle.
I feel and understand your pain, your defeat, your anger
I wish everything else had an easy answer
I am with you in your pain spiraling down the black hole that seemingly has no end.
Big big hugs! I am with you!
You are struggling so hard and life shouldn’t require white-knuckling 24/7.
You don’t have to do this alone
Give yourself some grace. You cannot hate or belittle yourself into losing weight.
I know you feel knocked down but I know you can get back up again.
You are not a failure and God is not done with you yet
It’s about BELIEVING you are enough. That’s one foothold on the mountain back up!
But yet I cannot seem to get those hateful lies out of my brain
God is bigger than them all and He is the answer!
you need more than what you can do on your own
You know what to do – and here we are… Stuck
Please don’t give up.
It was a very frustrating process, but when it clicked – it was SO WORTH IT.
You have meant a lot. The pain was just too much.
Life issues that are bleeding your energy
Over and over again
Now. Take a deep breath and let. it. go.
That God hasn’t given up on you
It’s because He isn’t relying on you. That’s why He sent us Christ!
All God asks is that we try–
When I was little I would get really down on myself
But “I know I’m somebody! God don’t make no junk!”
there is HOPE! you haven’t totally given up yet!
But I do want to remind you that you ARE enough.
Whether you are 300 lbs or 150 you are a much-loved child of God.
If you do nothing else today, please remember that. You ARE enough. You ARE loved.
Those of us who have been in similar situations DO understand
I feel your pain.
My only thought is you can’t give up.
Grace has stepped in and covered the gap we all have
Pray for guidance
It’s all about balance
you need to give yourself a break!
All of these heavy worries on your shoulders!
Take a deep breath. Have a moment of pause. Look at all of the GOOD that you do day in and day out.
I have been at this rodeo a hundred times before
Find something that fills your cup. Take some time for yourself
You are worth everything and you are enough!!
This too will pass and soon you will get the strength to turn things around.
Hang in there and know that God is nearby.
Just let him know you need him to take over and at this point you can’t do it on your own.
You are not alone.
Know one thing: You are not alone.
Know a second thing: God doesn’t care what size you are
His love encompasses the big and small
Our value in God’s eyes is unchanged in larger bodies.
God will walk with you and with me. He is in no rush. He’s eternal and so are we.
We’ve got time.
One day, in resurrection bodies, weight will be one of those “former things” that will have “passed away.”
Just hold on
That’s what matters. Love. Not fat. Love.
Losing the fat is just about being more alive for those who need us to be. To enjoy what we can until Paradise comes.
Let’s keep fighting the good fight for love.
Let’s cultivate faith to move a small clod of earth, then a mound, then a small hill….
Faith, hope, love
Hold onto them
The rest is history
Not bad is it?? Can you believe the above was written by at least 60 plus people one line at a time who did not collaborate with each other before hand? It reads with some continuity doesn’t it? Perhaps because in some way we all really are connected. I used to diligently practice always looking for the good in everything. Not allowing anything to be wasted. This exercise allowed me to take one piece of every comment and then step back and see how it seemingly fit together into one beautiful message. Thank you!
Here’s to a new week with a new mindset. Or at least the willingness to TRY!