For the past month, my anxiety has been at an all time high. Every single morning without fail I wake up feeling panicked. It takes me several hours to get it under control. I hate it. It’s awful. It’s especially awful because food comforts me. When I am going through episodes of panic, it is very hard to stay on track with food due to that reason.
But I am determined to walk through it.
I’ve asked God daily to guide me in whatever direction He would have me to go. I am trusting Him. If my anxiety is based in reality then I believe He will show me the source of it and help me to deal with it. If my anxiety is not based in reality (and is in fact nothing more than a feeling/sensation) then I believe He will reveal that to me as well and help me deal with it.
Anxiety is a problem I’ve always had. I strongly believe it is one of the major roadblocks to my success in the weight loss journey. Its just so much easier to eat than feel anxious. I mean truly it is. If I eat, the anxiety will go away temporarily. And even a temporary break is better than no break, right?
But today I want to share with you what helps me the most. It’s my action plan
#1—As soon as I wake up, I go to God. I don’t check the balance on my bank account. I don’t check my email. I don’t check the news. I don’t even get out of bed. I want God to know that I am putting my trust in Him. Before I look to anything (food or otherwise) for help, I go to Him. I believe that God honors our efforts. When we go to Him first it proves that He is going to be our first line of defense. Above even Oreos!
#2—I don’t start out our conversation with my problems. I start out acknowledging that He is God. That He is the Creator. And then I just thank Him for giving me one more day on this earth . Even if the day sucks. Even if the day looks bleak. I still thank Him for it.
#3–I read some passage in the Bible (sometimes random, sometimes a continuation of something else) and I ask Him to use it to teach me something. Often I feel it is specific to me. Often I don’t. But I still do it anyway. I believe that the effort means something to Him. It shows that I’m trying. That I’m seeking Him.
#4—I listen to music that speaks of His power and His love for me. I usually pull it up on Youtube by searching “Praise and Worship Lyrics”. I always prefer the lyrics videos. I’m not interested in who the singer is or what they look like on stage. I’m interested in getting the idea that God loves me into my mind as quickly as possible before the day begins. I like lyrics videos because you see it and hear it at the same time. And the focus is off the performer. It’s where it should be. On God.
Then I get up. And the day begins.
Sometimes I feel better. Sometimes I don’t. But if I do this every day—then it slowly seeps into me like medication. It begins to plant seeds of faith in my heart. It eases the anxiety. Not as quickly as a Donut. Not as fast as pizza. But when it gets in there daily and it multiplies—it becomes far more effective in time.
Today I know this. We are loved. There is hope. Sometimes that’s all I know—but it’s enough.
The LORD is near to all who call upon Him–Psalms 145:18
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you—James 4:8
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.—Romans 15:13