Welcome to Saturday! I’m so glad it’s here. I really wanted a break from the week. Last night the kids and I had a slumber party of sorts in the living room. We slept on the couches and watched movies until we passed out. I LOVE that I can do that now. Before, I could not fit on the couch to sleep there but now I can. I admit I love living room slumber parties with my kids. It’s always fun to cuddle up together and stay up late! When Savannah was little we would do this too. Back then she was an only child. It’s hard to believe there was ever a time I didn’t have 400 children but it’s true. There for awhile, it was just Savannah. We would gather all her stuffed animals into the living room with us and have slumber parties. Since Savannah is in college now, I was really missing her last night. I kept thinking about my little girl with her blonde curls all cuddled up on our couch with her Tigger and Winnie the Pooh. Then I got out the photo album so I could make it worse. Reminiscing about how time has passed. Now she’s all grown up and in college. I texted her to say we were having a slumber party and missed her. She wrote back…
“Miss you too, Mom! Can I have 40 dollars?”
Yeah—back to reality! hahaha
So while we were watching movies last night, my kids were also making things out of cardboard.
You see, I ordered this fall wreath for the door off of Etsy and it came in a giant box.
I am so NOT crafty. Other people are though and thanks to the internet I can go on Etsy and buy what they make, throw it on my door and appear crafty too.
That Etsy is a dangerous place for me!
With the leftover cardboard, Charlotte made a Barbie dollhouse that was so good it made me wonder why I paid over 100 dollars for one on Amazon. It’s still a work in progress (she told me) but I’d say it’s pretty darn good!!
CJ was inspired and grabbed an Amazon box I still had laying around which he used to make a laptop table.
My kids are pretty crafty I think. They sure didn’t get it from me!
So this morning when I woke up from our slumber party, I hopped on the internet and someone had left a link to this blog:
It is a blog written by a woman named Andie Mitchell. She lost over 100 pounds and has even written a book about it that I believe is coming out in 2015. Maybe you already know who she is. After I started reading some of her stuff, I began to wonder—why didn’t I know about her before now?
The first post that I read was the most recent one called “Taking Up Space and Acting Small” It is 100% how I have felt in my life. She talks about how often times overweight people feel the tendency to always apologize for everything. ALL THE TIME. That if someone bumps into US….we are the ones saying “sorry” because after all–we take up more space than anyone–so it must somehow be our fault.
The problem is when “sorry” takes over. When you end up spending your whole life apologizing for everything. I can’t tell you how much this is ME. I am literally one of the “sorriest” people I know. I have even had friends joke about how often I apologize for things that aren’t my fault. I have even apologized to the person behind me in the grocery line for getting there first. And then offered them my place. Even if I have 3 things and they have 300. It doesn’t matter. I am just ALWAYS ALWAYS sorry. She mentioned in her post that she has apologized to the barista at Starbucks when THEY made her drink wrong. I’ve done it too! I’ve even apologized to them for having been totally inept at transmitting what I wanted properly. I mean obviously I must have ordered it wrong. It has to be ME. I AM THE PROBLEM. And I am just SO sorry because of it.
Not long ago, I wrote about an experience I had recently where I found myself apologizing once again only to realize that it was my wacky thinking that was the real problem and not anything I should truly be sorry for. But then I apologized for my wacky thinking here—> Excuse My Neuroses. It never ends!
So I’ve been reading a lot that Andie has written on her blog “Can You Stay For Dinner?” and I totally relate to so much of what she is saying. Except that she has something I don’t feel that I really have. And it’s peace with food. She has a lot of recipes on her websites for things like doughnuts. Those things are my nemesis. If I eat one—-I eat the box. Somehow she seems to have found a peace with food, though, that I’m not sure I have. But I want to keep reading. I want to see more of what she has to say.
She also gave a TED talk which I watched. It was really good.
It gave me a lot to think about. Especially how we need to learn to focus on today.
Just getting through TODAY.
I’m not sure I will ever be able to eat doughnuts the way she can without having a problem but I know this—she seems really balanced and at peace. She seems to still find enjoyment in food too. And that’s something I wish I could do. I can’t tell you how badly I want to be that person who can eat food and enjoy it without worrying that I will let it get out of control. It seems that she may have found a way to do that. At least from what I’ve read so far. I’m not sure that will ever be me but it’s something I want to read more about.
If you have thoughts, share them!!