My 2nd 5-Day Streak is Complete! Turtle Power!

October 24, 2014 in Uncategorized

Hello my fellow turtles and tortoises!!

Special thanks to all of you who have been with me on the journey the past two weeks.  A special round of applause to Allen’s dog who continues to lead the charge! Not only has he consistently walked all week but I noticed on the map he posted that he even walked PAST a Pizza Hut with nary a bite! Talk about commitment!

Shout out to Sherri and Michelle who hopped on Map My Walk and have been posting their walks.  Also to Christine for emailing me the link for the coolest shirt ever!

It says “I Run…I’m slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter…BUT I RUN”

 

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I love it!! My turtle and tortoise collection is finally growing again.  And that is good.  I’m finally getting my joy back along with a sense of direction.   I know my plan will work if I just keep plodding away and I have totally accepted that I’d rather achieve my victory in time than rush  it.  When I rush, I fall off course.  I must go slow and steady to achieve permanent changes.  I realize that and I am now completely ok with it.  I know I will get there and I no longer care when.  All that matters now is that there is a way out.  However long it takes is irrelevant.  Only that I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I walk towards it.  That means hope is alive again!

That is so very exciting for me because I felt as if I was beginning to lose hope.  Not just in the area of weight loss but in some other areas of life as well.  So many things have left me feeling bewildered.  If I’m even going in the right direction.  Dread and anxiety have consumed me for some time.   And to see the scale creeping up was just making it worse.  To know that I could go back to that physical prison I lived in weighed heavy on my heart.  But I say “beginning” to lose hope because even when on the verge of total hopelessness and even in my darkest hours God holds me up and keeps me from completely throwing in the towel.

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair

Persecuted, but not forsaken

Struck down, but not destroyed

2 Corinthians 4:8-9

Let’s face it.  That scripture is hopeful but it still doesn’t sound fun!  You may not be totally crushed but you’re still afflicted in every way.  You aren’t driven to total despair but you’re still perplexed. I’d say that pretty well describes about the last year or so of my life! And yet STILL there is hope.  However small— it is there.  Even if we don’t feel it.  That small sliver of hope hidden in our hearts keeps helping us to hang on.

I have learned that we often have to walk through dreary days.  Sometimes dreary months.  Maybe even dreary years!  I wish it wasn’t that way but it is.  At least for me.  Sometimes all we can do is just keep moving forward the best way we know how.  To be honest, that sometimes looks backwards.  Often the best way we know how is through mistakes.  Sometimes its through bad decisions and wrong choices.  But all the while, we are just trying to move through the mess and hold onto the hope that some day light will shine through and show us the way.

And then it does!

 But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary

They shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31

So sometimes we have to wait it out.  Keep doing the best we can and just hold onto hope.  Then one day we find our strength renewed.  We find our way back on the path.   And it isn’t that a relief?!

The 5 Day streak has been a miracle for me.   Going back to small steps has been the best idea I’ve had in a long time.  I felt like I had no faith left in me until I remembered that I didn’t need much.  Only that mustard seed!!

If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, nothing will be impossible for you!

Matthew 17:20

Next on my list of things to shop for—-mustard seeds!  I’m going to buy some of those so I can see for myself how tiny they really are.  I’ll put them in a bowl next to my turtles and tortoises.  So I am reminded that in your darkest hour, you need only the smallest sliver of faith to make the impossible possible.  And for someone who has had NO consistency whatsoever with exercise in almost a year now—the impossible has become possible again.   Every time I tried to get back on track, I felt overwhelmed.  I lacked motivation.  I could usually muster up the mental fortitude to do random spurts of 3 or 4 miles here and there but then I would be left with weeks of NOTHING in between.    Then I finally decided to go SMALL.  And when small was still too much, I went even smaller.  In the past two weeks, I have been walking a half mile every morning.  Sometimes a little more when I felt inspired.

Here is my progress over the past 2 weeks.  It goes from most recent and then backwards.

 

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These are my Map My Walk stats from my last two  5-day Streaks

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I added it up and I’ve walked a total of 10.88 miles in the past 12 days!!  That is almost 11 miles!

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By choosing to cut my goal all the way down to half a mile daily (doing more if I CHOSE to but not being required to) along with not requiring myself to go at any particular pace, I was able to get in about 11 miles total in the past 12 days.  That is 11 miles in 2 weeks rather than 2 miles in 2 weeks.  Plus one is daily consistent exercise versus one random spurt of exercise.  Not only did I do close to 11 miles in those 2 weeks but I still took 2 days off!! 2 days that I preplanned to take off and therefore had no guilt over.   I can now say I have 2 weeks of total consistency in the books!   Doing what you are willing to do is much better than forcing yourself to do something you feel burdened by.  Especially when you realize that if you stop pressuring yourself and just give yourself time—you will become willing to do more as time goes on.

My joy is even returning!  I have actually started becoming adjusted to getting up every morning and doing this.  I dare say I am starting to look forward to it and even enjoying it now that the pressure is off.  I’m starting to become INTERNALLY motivated to do more on my own.

Yesterday and today I did over a mile without even realizing it.  I was slow jogging at the tortoise pace and listening to the music.  The next thing I knew I looked down and this is what I saw!

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It doesn’t matter that I didn’t go very far or that I didn’t go very fast.  I still did 8 more miles in the past 2 weeks than I would have by trying to force myself to go further and faster.   Now I am going slowly enough to actually enjoy it and yet still get it done.  In addition to that,  I am finding myself wanting to go longer and further.  I would not be surprised if in time I am going faster as well.  Last Friday I considered upping my goal this week from a half mile to one mile daily.  The problem is that I wasn’t feeling motivated to do that.  I questioned if I would stick with it if I did.  I am so glad that I decided NOT to pressure myself to do that.  Had I forced myself to take on that challenge last week I most likely would have quit . Yet by giving myself permission to just keep plodding away I found that a mere 7 days later, I automatically was doing more from an internal motivation that came totally from within.  So next week’s goal will NOW be be to up it to 1 mile.  Because now that is springing up from inside of me naturally and without pressure.  It’s amazing what a difference that is when it’s by choice and not external pressure or force.

Going as small as you need to go  to ensure that you actually WILL do it is the way to go.  Whatever that is—30 seconds, 2 minutes…it doesn’t matter.

The principle is all the same.   Water that goal every day and watch your little mustard seed grow!!!

Here is my victory list completed! The WIN IS IN!

 

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Thanks to all who encourage me.  We are on our way!!

In honor of the weekend and my renewed faith in TURTLE POWER,  I present to you the Vanilla Ice Ninja Rap from the 1991 Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Movie.  Because I am feeling much like a Ninja turtle right now!

(  Ironically this is not the first time Vanilla Ice has inspired me on this journey.  Click here for “Ice Ice Baby”)

 

Fight on Turtles!

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Mrs. Abella October 24, 2014 at 10:33 pm

Way to go!!!! You can do it! It’s little steps, one foot in front of the other, one small victory at a time.

BTW I love that shirt! I run as fast as a snail caught in molasses in the arctic.
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Calleigh October 24, 2014 at 11:13 pm

Great work Holly!

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Anna October 25, 2014 at 9:42 am

Awesome! That’s so great. Congratulations on an amazing week! 🙂

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C October 25, 2014 at 11:12 am

You’ve really helped. You change my thinking. Your stories stay with me and make hope easier. And – I have LAUGHED about that dog and his walks. I even told my family about it, and they laughed, too. Where will the dog walk next!?

Because of you, I allow small successes to be real, celebrated victories. I don’t ignore them because they’re small. I celebrate them. They’re small – and they matter. That process is lifting the guilt and shoulds and oughts off my head.

I can’t remember exactly where I read this – “Tested, battle-weary leaders are the ones people follow.”

It’s true. You’re a leader because you know the trenches, and you don’t lie about what they’re like. I appreciate you.

Celebrating your victories, too! All of them!

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Lori October 25, 2014 at 2:39 pm

Congratulations!!!
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Rhonda W October 25, 2014 at 5:10 pm

Hooray and Woot Woot! You are doing great!

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Linda October 26, 2014 at 3:46 am

Hi holly,

Two weeks in and i think you are already benefitting from the endorphins from the exercise. Such a great mood enhancer !!
Just take one day at a time. You have got this !!

Linda

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ria October 26, 2014 at 11:16 am

Pls help me to lose 200 pounds.
i need ur guidance

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John (Daddy Runs a Lot) October 30, 2014 at 1:06 pm

My CJ has started singing “Go Ninja, Go Ninja, Go” when he’s looking to motivate himself — love that you’re using it as well.

And good on you. Simply, good on you.
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