Taking Flight

May 8, 2014 in Uncategorized


Last week I flew out to Virginia to visit my best friend, Amanda


I said that like it’s no big deal, right?

Except that it is a big deal


People who weigh over 400 pounds don’t generally fly

In fact, one of the worst things to ever happen to me in this life

Was finding out my mother was in the hospital on life support

And being unable to go see her before she passed away because I was unable to fly

The guilt I carried was wide and deep

But ┬áit wasn’t just the flying

It’s everything involved

Standing in lines

Moving through security

Walking up and down stairs

And cramming into that seat

Not to mention fitting in the seatbelt

But now I can fly

Like it’s no big deal

Only for me…it will always be the biggest deal ever

I will never take for granted the abilities I have now that once were lost to me

I ended up having two layovers on the way back


Talk about exhausting!

Two of those flights had me in the MIDDLE seat


Anyone who has been a big person knows this is instant FEAR

It’s bad enough trying to squeeze into a seat but…..the MIDDLE??


But now I know I can fit

I don’t have the fear anymore that I might not be able to

It has taken me several years though to finally realize that YES…I will fit…

My mind has finally caught up to that reality

I will say this

I never cease being thrilled and filled with wonder that I can do these things

Like get on a plane

Walk down the aisle without having to turn sideways

Moving past people already sitting down and making my way into the middle seat

Without them having to get up to let me through

I can put on a seatbelt without an extender (and without losing consciousness because it’s so tight)

And I can also fit in the airplane bathroom


I didn’t even have to go to the bathroom but I still walked down there just because I can

Both of my layovers were close calls and at big airports

In the Dallas airport, I had to literally walk a few miles I think to get where I was going

And then ride the sky tram where no seat was available and it was flying at warp speed

Let’s think this one out

417 pounds….standing UP….trying to hold onto the pole flying at warp speed

And keep all your body weight from flinging past everyone onto the floor

Once again…..NO BIG DEAL

Which still is flat out amazing

Sometimes I just can’t believe how ‘incognito’ I get to be in life

I can make a connecting flight without needing to call in the calvary

I can walk

I can run

I can fit in seats

And I can do it while blending right into the crowd

Not being stared at

In life, people seem to want attention–right?

But once you’ve felt like a walking target with a bullseye on your back

You kind of love being invisible….

This is what makes the hard work worth it


It’s the little things

The things we take for granted

That now we are able to do

Losing weight is often like being miraculously healed of paralysis

Where once you were virtually immobile

And now you can rise and walk!!!

Better yet


This journey is hard

But then there are days we find ourselves soaring above the clouds

And that’s when we know

The fight and the tears meant something

Because now you are high on eagle’s wings

With strength from above

You can run and not grow weary

You can walk and not faint

That hope you held onto in the beginning did not fail you

It led to victory







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Calleigh May 8, 2014 at 10:22 pm

That’s amazing. So happy for you!
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Valerie May 9, 2014 at 4:49 pm

I hope you and Amanda had a great time. I think all of us girls wish we had a Holly-Amanda relationship. Both of you are beautiful!


Angela May 10, 2014 at 5:18 pm

You awoke the emotions I have experienced, when walking onto a plane hoping I wasn’t seated at the solid armrest seats or the emergency exit seats, besides always having to ask and then re ask for a belt extension. This is still my reality, but changing for the future! Your post, reminded me of one of the reasons I am on this journey!
So I celebrate your success & joy of flying without barriers!!!


Karen P May 10, 2014 at 8:06 pm

Glad you got to see your friend, Holly. Glad you can travel where and when you want.
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Shay from Trashy Blog May 13, 2014 at 12:16 am

That’s awesome! Congratulations!!
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