WHEW! This challenge has been a lot harder than I anticipated.
The first thing I will say is that I am OVER the crockpot!! LOL
My kids are over it too!! They are ready to get back to a mix of meals and not just the crockpot every day.
I still love the crockpot and find it to be very helpful in a lot of ways.
At the same time, one of the things that has been key in my success to losing weight is LESS variety and NOT more.
I know this seems odd because most people say that getting “bored” with their food is what leads to weight gain.
But I am the opposite.
When I get too involved with food….food planning….recipe searching…it leads back to TOO MUCH interest in food
So looking for new recipes every day for 30 days was probably not the smartest thing for me to do!!
It stirs up a lot of interest again in food!!
I do a lot better with a standard set of meals that keep it simple.
I’m glad I have found new meals BUT I have to be careful that I don’t get too MANY new things thrown into my plan
Too much variety for me is actually not a good thing.
SO today…I am not using the crockpot.
Today I read something that really made me stop and think
It said the following:
” An addiction is more than just a behavior. There is a thought behind the choice that is driving it. The addiction is the hook, but the bait came before in the form of some deceit and trickery. Perhaps a person has come to believe that no one will ever love them, and so they debase themselves with those who use them. In order to get over an addiction by God’s grace, we need to ultimately uncover the bait that we have sunk our teeth into. Until we forsake that, we will never get off the addictive hook.”—Relevant Bible Teaching
This article went on to say that we often must pray for God to change what we desire.
Some of us truly struggle with loving things that are destructive to us.
After all, if we didn’t get something desirable out of it…we wouldn’t do it!!
I have felt a LOVE for food in my life that could rival some of the greatest love stories out there!
I have struggled with alcohol too after giving up food. Like someone who simply goes from one bad relationship to another.
I’ve even struggled with the attention I get from men. As if the opinion of my physical appearance is somehow going to fill a need?!
What is this BAIT?
What is this HOOK?
Like the article states, the problem is not the “addiction”.
The addiction is just what happens AFTER the bait hooks us in!!
We can’t stop the behavior we want to rid ourselves of if we don’t first recognize the bait that is drawing us in.
What is it about the food that makes it so desirable?
What feeling does it give us?
The same could be said of alcohol, attention from others, shopping, or whatever else we struggle with.
Does it give us a feeling of peace? Happiness? Security?
Whatever it is doing for us is drawing us in. THAT is the bait.
We must find the bait, recognize it and take it OFF that hook!!!
God has promised that He can change our desires
He can help us want the things for ourselves that are healthy
Instead of desiring those things that are destructive
He has promised to empower us to make better decisions
But we must first decide to go to war!
We must first call it what it is!
Too many times in my life I have been on the fence about whether something is a problem in my life
I have tried to tell myself that I can “handle” it
And you know why I do that??
Because deep down I don’t really want to let it go!
I want to keep it! I want to hold onto it!
Like someone who won’t break up or leave an abusive lover because a part of them still desires that person in their life!
Instead they convince themselves….”it’s not that bad”….”I’m exaggerating“….”things can get better, right?”
So they put their hope in trying to make a destructive relationship better
Instead of running away from it
Acknowledging that it must be put away once and for all!!
This is what I have often done with food
Knowing full well that I can’t handle candy bars
I look for a healthy version of one….hoping I can make what I know is bad for me “less bad”
For me, candy bars lead to more candy bars
I can’t make it better
The answer is to simply stop taking the bait!
For me there is no moderation of certain things
There never will be
The only answer is to STOP….totally and completely
And that is when we must decide to declare war
Resist the devil and he will flee (James 4:7).
That is a promise of God to us.
But we have to first decide to fight!
We must first decide to declare war on those things in our life that are destructive.
And that means not going back to the bait
Not going back “just this time”
“Just this once”
This has been a problem for me as well
Once I feel like I’m back in control
I think….”Wow see!! I CAN handle this!”
And before long I’ve convinced myself that I can go back for a visit
That I can hold hands once again with the very thing that has been threatening to take me down!!
This has gone amazingly well!! I just had about 20 bags hauled out of my garage as well as the old pool out back that really needed to go!
In addition to that, we did MOUNDS of laundry this weekend and got totally caught up!
I can’t even tell you how exciting it is to not have tons of laundry waiting for me!
Now that things are getting more organized it will be much easier to keep it straight!
This is going extremely well!! I am now back into the routine of going daily to the gym.
I am continuing to do 30 minutes on the treadmill alternating walking and jogging.
I started using the Zombie Run app and it is really fun!
I had no idea things like this existed. It tells a full story for you to listen to in between the times you must run
Here was my first crack at it
I wonder if there are other apps like this because it is really great !!
I’m also continuing to add 30 seconds every day or every other day to the Elliptical
I’m now up to 13 minutes and 30 seconds
Overall things have been going well aside from the fact that I haven’t been great at blogging!!!
I’ve had a lot of thing happening in the past week or so like science fair projects for the kids and some other things which have kept me busy!
Now….how are YOU?