Oh my goodness!!
This challenge has been rough for me. I have not been able to blog daily as I had originally thought but I’m trying! The reason I like to blog often is because it keeps me accountable. I think this is a really important thing for those of us who tend to fall off the back of that wagon easily!! Whether it’s blogging or journaling–finding a way to document progress and stay accountable is super important!
1. CrockPot challenge
Today’s meal was sausage and sauerkraut. I had never had this before and I was a bit unsure about it but I gave it a whirl because it doesn’t get much easier than dumping a jar of sauerkraut in a crockpot with sliced up sausage! That is literally all I did. I do know that both of these items are totally right on track for my food plan because they are low in carbs and sugar. It was pretty good! I still didn’t care much for the sauerkraut myself but I can never go too wrong with sausage.
2. 30 Minutes of Walking/Jogging for 30 Days
This is going extremely well. I was having a hard time getting myself back in the groove before I started doing this challenge. I had managed to get back to the gym and back on the treadmill but I was struggling to keep myself interested in staying on!! Now that I have a few goals I am working on, things are going really well. It has also helped that my friend, Krystal, is coming to the gym with me. Here we are today
This reminds me of why my brother often would say that moving towards group fitness can be key in helping you to be successful. There is something about being with a group of people (or even just one person) that spurs you on and keeps you going.
The truth is that not everyone has that though. In the beginning, I did not workout with anyone but myself. My companion or supporter was usually whatever music or podcast I was listening to!! I think it’s good to have someone live and in person if possible but regardless we can get there!
Today’s workout was:
3o minutes on the treadmill alternating jogging/walking
11 minutes on the elliptical (I have been increasing this about 30 seconds-1 minute every day or every other day)
6 minutes on the arc trainer (Increasing this 30 seconds at a time also but not every day. This is a tough one for me!)
3. 30 Minutes of Bible Study for 30 Days
Today I used a devotional from In Touch Ministries titled “Lord, Why Can’t I Change?”
It talked about how many times we fall into habits that we can’t seem to break.
We vow to change.
And as soon as we set out in a new direction, we find ourselves right back where we started
A pattern of habitually doing the same wrong thing over and over again
I know this pattern all too well in my life and it’s highly frustrating
It would be one thing not to care!
It would be one thing to just give up and give in to wherever the downward spiral takes us!
But to WANT to be different
To STRIVE to be different
And then still fail again and again
Words cannot express what this does to our hearts
How it leaves us feeling defeated when we find ourselves once again face to face with that empty donut box
Or whatever bad habit we promised ourselves would never entrap us again
How many times have I asked God this very question
“If I WANT to be different and if you (God) want me to be different….then why am I still this way???”
I mean look….we’re both in agreement, God, that I need to change
And we are both in agreement that I cannot do it in my own power
Then why are you not laying down some thunder and zapping me straight?!
I’M WILLING TO BE ZAPPED!
LET’S DO THIS!
That’s how I have felt more times than I can count
Like God and I are on the same page but He is refusing to take over the situation
Instead I’m left to drown in my own sad situation wondering when he will hear my SOS
Here are the facts
God says in 2 Corinthians 5:17 that if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation! The old is gone and the new has come!
Well alrighty then, God….why do I still want a Big Mac?
Why do I still crave things that I know are not good for me?!
Why do certain bad patterns crop back up regardless of how badly I want them to stop?
Well today’s Bible study reminded me that as a Christian, two things take place
Sure we are saved
Like someone being pulled out of quicksand is immediately relieved
But now you have to look in the mirror and realize that while you’re out of the quicksand
You’re still covered in it
It’s still dripping off of you
The remnants are still there
Sanctification is a process and it doesn’t happen overnight
We’re even told that we have to walk it out and sometimes with fear and trembling (Phil 2:12)
Because it takes time
Just because we want to be different doesn’t mean our mind isn’t still filled with old patterns and a thought life that took years to be programmed in its destructive mindset
The way out of our old life is to transform our mind (Romans 12:2)
We have to literally delete old tapes and replace them with new ones
My devotional today said this:
So, what triggers negative thought patterns? We experience a sight, sound, smell, flavor, or touch that gives us momentary pleasure and we begin to think, What would it be like if I…? This begins the downward spiral—our senses trigger thoughts, which elicit destructive patterns of behavior.
I can’t tell you how many times I have lusted after some Krispy Kreme!!!
I also can’t tell you how many times I have been pulled away and led down a wrong path in regards to bad habits
I know what works and it’s so true what they say….it all starts in your head
Now don’t get me wrong
I know that things like sugar and alcohol are physically addictive
So getting off THAT will have a lot to do with the physical as well
But the way to conquer it truly starts in the mind
Sometimes I forget just how important it really is for me to constantly fill my mind with right thoughts instead of wrong ones
I can never underestimate the power of that
When I let my guard down and become unaware of what is getting in my head
I always fall
This is why we should align ourselves with people who can fill our minds with truth when all we hear playing is lies!
I still struggle at times with not feeling like I can ever live up to the goals I have set
I often feel depressed or like I am the biggest Loser in LOSERVILLE!
I hear that inner voice telling me “You can’t do this! You can never change!”
And when I screw up, I often feel that my behavior defines me
I recently had a bad day and ended up talking with my good friend, John, from the Let’s Reverse Obesity podcast
He reminded me of something VERY important and it’s this
While I was busy recounting several mistakes I had made
And telling him what a loser I was
He was reminding me that we are not what we DO
Yes what we do will affect us
But we are NOT losers because we screw up
I once heard Joyce Meyer say that we have to learn to see our WHO and our DO as different entities
We may not do everything right all the time
But that doesn’t affect who we are
We are loved
We are trying
We are making efforts
We may still make mistakes in life
But we are NOT our mistakes
If you believe that you ARE the mistakes that you make
Then you will develop a shame based nature
And shame based natures lead to depression, anxiety and all types of disordered thinking
So we MUST make a point to fill our mind with the right thoughts
Thoughts about who we ARE
Not what we DO
And once we believe that we ARE loved
We ARE worthy
We ARE special
Then our “Do” will catch up with our “who”
Because then we will believe deep down that we have it within us to make things happen!
30 Minutes of House Cleaning!
I’m trying!! I have not done very well with my 40 bags in 40 days challenge though. I guess I had less to get rid of than I thought. So that’s a good thing!
30 Days of Blogging
Now….How are YOU?