This was our first Candy Free Easter
And it was a total success!
I used to buy plastic eggs and fill them with candy
But out here in Texas, we have confetti eggs called Cascarones
And that is what I used this year instead
It was great because they’re really cheap and I could buy tons of premade cartons
And fill up the yard!
The kids had a blast hunting for the eggs
And smashing them!
They had so much fun smashing confetti eggs
That no one even missed the candy!
And now we have a new tradition!
Instead of candy, I filled their Easter baskets with other things
Here they are
Holidays can be difficult when they seem to be surrounded by food traditions
But I’ve discovered that I can change those if I want to
And as time goes on, the kids are getting on board more and more
I like the idea of letting food be something I choose
Not something forced upon me by traditions
If I want to make a dinner and fill the house up with chocolate candy–I can
It is after all MY decision
But I can also choose NOT to if I feel that works better for my life
Because Christmas and Easter and Valentine’s Day are not even about food
They are about other things
So we can determine what we focus on
And it’s ok for that to be food if it is our choice
And it’s ok for that not to be food….if we don’t want it to be
I like the idea of these choices belonging to me
And not feeling the need to bow to any pressure of what I “should” or “shouldn’t” do
I’m becoming more and more comfortable with keeping traditions that work for me
And getting rid of those that don’t
And I’m discovering that fear I held onto
That the kids would somehow feel “cheated” if we did things a different way
Has ended up being nothing more than empty fear
Because my kids said this was one of the best Easters we’ve had in a long time
I’ll let that speak for itself!!
Now onto some exciting news!!
I wore a DRESS on Easter for the first time in at least 10 years….maybe longer
I have worn nightgowns and “house” dresses around the house for years
But that was only due to the fact that I was not walking around very much in them
The problem with dresses and being over 400 pounds is the fire!!
The fire that it starts between your thighs when they rub together as you walk
Starting about a decade ago
I stopped wearing dresses altogether
Aside from the nightgowns and house dresses that I wore
I never wore a dress outside of the house in public
Dresses were something I wore while I was sitting or laying down
Dresses are not designed for people who have issues with their thighs rubbing together
So I never thought I would wear a dress again in public to be honest
Especially NOT a knee length dress that actually shows my legs!
But on Easter this year, I wore a DRESS!!
A size 16/XL dress at that!
And let me tell you…it was truly one of the most exciting days I’ve had in a long time.
Here is a picture of the kids and I on our way out the door heading to church
From left to right…
Annabelle, CJ, me, Charlotte, Savannah
After church, I changed another tradiition
Instead of coming home and eating a traditional Easter dinner
Which would have included many of my favorite things that would throw me off track
Because they contain sugar
We went out to eat
I let someone else do the cooking!
That means no dishes to wash
And no tempting leftovers to follow me into next week
We went to the “Egg and I” restaurant for brunch
And I love this place
I can get omelets, frittatas, eggs….all perfect for my food plan
But the kids can get waffles or french toast or pancakes if they choose
So that’s what we did
They told us it would be a 30 minute wait at the restaurant
And you know what we did
We stood there and waited!!!
BECAUSE I CAN
Waiting and standing no longer gives me a problem now that I’ve lost weight!
I didn’t get a picture of it
But the chair had arms
And it didn’t phase me one bit!!!
Fitting in chairs is a non-issue for me now!
So I was walking around in this dress
The first dress I’ve worn out in public in about 10 years
And I had this feeling come over me
It was this strange feeling that was familiar
But I wasn’t quite sure what it was.
Was it happiness?
I wasn’t sure
But then suddenly I was in the bathroom at the Egg and I Restaurant
And it dawned on me as I was looking in the mirror at myself what it was!!
Right then I knew instantly what I was feeling…..
I FELT CUTE in that dress!!
I suddenly said to myself out loud…
“Oh my gosh!! I feel cute!” It came right out!!
And the woman standing next to me washing her hands looked over at me and said …
“Well good for you!! We all should feel cute every now and then!!” hahahaha
I don’t know if I looked cute.
I don’t know if the dress was even all that flattering for my figure.
But I truly don’t care because I felt cute!!
I’m almost 41 and I felt cute
Tell me that isn’t some kind of miracle!
Because I didn’t plan to wear a dress this Easter
I had no intention to go looking for a dress because in my mind I still was not able to wear them
Then about 5 am, I made a Walmart run for some last minute items I needed for the kids Easter baskets
I saw this dress for about 10 bucks and thought…why not
I tossed it in knowing it would never fit.
Only it did!
I’ve had experiences with dresses in the past that MIGHT fit me
If only they could make it over my giant boobs!!!!
Usually they get stopped right there and will go no further
But not this time!
Easter is full of miracles and this was one!
I got a dress to fit over my boobs.
And darn it I felt CUTE…
I felt cute in a dress for the first time in at least 10-15 years.
I never ever thought I’d feel that way again.
And when I got home, I kept on wearing it .
I wore it all day long until it was time to go to bed.
Not only can I now wear a dress without setting my lady parts on fire….
I can cross one foot OVER the other while I am standing up
Try crossing your legs like that at 417 pounds
Not gonna happen!!!
And I can put my hands behind my back too!
These are things that could NOT be done 225 pounds ago!!!
Fitting a dress over my boobs, crossing my legs and putting my hands behind my back
That’s 3 miracles for the price of one!
Even church was great!!
I go to a really large church
And if you don’t get there early, you might have to climb to the very top to get a seat
And you cannot do that if you can barely walk
Not a problem this year!
Here’s the view (sorry it’s dark)
Not only did I walk to the very top row
I sat in the MIDDLE of a row
And fit in one chair
The craziness just keeps coming!!!!
This church service was unlike any others
The message was probably 15 minutes max
The rest of it was music
A live performance of someone doing a painting
We really enjoyed it
They taped it and have it available online 24 hours a day through April 6th if anyone’s interested
Here’s the link for it—-CBC ONLINE
So that’s it for my Easter!
I hope you had a great one too!