The Fiery Furnace of Obesity

January 3, 2013 in Uncategorized

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If you’ve ever been significantly obese

You’ll know

We don’t need extra heat

We carry it with us

Everywhere we go

 

I haven’t been cold

IN YEARS

Only recently have I started getting a little cold

I didn’t even realize I COULD get cold

 

Being obese

Is like wearing 100 fur lined winter coats

In 110 degree weather

EVERY SINGLE DAY

 

I was always hot

Blazing on fire hot

Because one of the many drawbacks to being obese

Is living in a constant state of fire

I mean you’re already in never ending pain

Every inch of your body hurts

Why not add fire too??

I mean let’s make it a REAL party!!

 

When people would come in my house

And it was 55 degrees

They thought they had entered an igloo

My power bill was through the roof

Because I had to run the air conditioner

Constantly

But I was so hot

That sweat would be pouring down my face

When everyone else was cold

 

You’re probably wondering about the kids

Well luckily

We moved here from Alaska

So they were used to freezing temperatures

And that’s what the inside of my house always was

Freezing

To everyone else that is…

To me–it was still a fiery furnace

 

But still I had to keep it down

To mid freezing temperatures

Just to tolerate my life

Just to get through the day

 

So if it got really cold

The kids would just

Bundle up in mittens and gloves

And snowsuits

And ear muffs

Because mama was hot!!

 

But if every day life

Is already bad

Just wait

For the Texas heat

 

417 pounds

Summer heat

It’s more than unbearable

It’s like living every day of your life

In a raging inferno

 

And when you have to go somewhere

You get in the car

Which by the way

Takes all of your energy

You try to aim all the vents at your face

Because if you can just keep the heat

From baking your face

Then maybe you’ll live

 

You finally make it to wherever you’re going

But now your hair is sticking to your neck

Your makeup has melted off

And your clothes are drenched

With sweat stains

It’s  a grand life, isn’t it??

 

One of the things I LOVE

About losing 207 pounds

Is that finally

FINALLY

I’M NOT ON FIRE !!!!

And I just LOVE it

 

For years of my life

I was hot

So hot that sometimes

I had to just stay home

And sit under the fan

With big bags of frozen vegetables

Strategically placed

To keep me from melting

 

But the fun continues

Because when you’re hot constantly

When you live in a neverending state

OF FIRE

You sweat a lot

I would sweat so much

That I had to buy prescription strength deodorant

And reapply it by the hour

 

Not only that

I would develop a heat rash

In all kinds of wonderful places

My favorite being

Under the boobs!

OH JOY!

Yes bring on the party people

Because heat rash under the boobs

Is AWESOME!!

 

Talk about pain!

It hurts

It’s like getting a really evil sunburn

And you’re already so uncomfortable

You’re already roasting 24 hours a day

So  let’s add heat rash burns

To the list of things we have to tolerate

Just to get through the day

 

How do you handle it?

Baby powder!

You have to powder yourself up

Like a donut

Oh geez…

Why must the analogies in my mind

Always go back to food!

 

There was always a powder explosion

In my bathroom

As I was constantly trying to flour myself

To get rid of these heat rashes

 

But I’d usually just trade

One blazing situation

For another

And my thighs were usually the culprit

You see they were fire starters too

Always ready

To stoke the flames!

 

I could no longer wear skirts

Or dresses

Because that left no protection

My thighs would just rub together

Ripping off the skin

 

I will never forget

Years ago

When I started teaching

It was my first day at work

And I was about 300 pounds at the time

 

Standing up all day

Walking around all day

Created a major problem

By the time the day was done

I could BARELY walk to the car

 

SO I hobbled home

Powdered myself up again

Took a strong pain reliever

And prayed for it to get better

Before tomorrow

When I had to go back

 

Heat

Fire

Rashes

Just another day in the life

Of an obese person

Just one more thing to deal with

Because your life isn’t already painful enough!

 

But never fear

No fire would last forever

Because I could always put it out

With  the sweat

Dripping from me at all times

 

When you’re obese

You’re hot

ALL THE TIME

Your internal temperature

The equivalent of HELL

 

In  my world

There were no seasons

Just one long giant summer

That started a decade or so ago

And just kept getting hotter

With each passing year

 

It’s odd that I’m talking about heat

In the winter

Right?

But not really

Because this is the first winter

In well over 10 years

That I have EVER been cold

 

I came here from Alaska

And I was almost never cold there

It was Minus 30 degrees

And while everyone else was bundled up

I threw on my coat

And was fine

 

So here’s a side benefit

To losing weight

Your power bill goes down dramatically

And suddenly you find yourself

Being able to exist

JUST EXIST

Without being boiled alive

What incredible, marvelous joy!!!

 

I can put on deodorant in the morning

Just regular normal deodorant

And it lasts all day

 

I don’t wake up in a puddle of sweat

I can go somewhere and arrive

Without my hair sticking to my neck

And my make up melted off

 

And you know what’s REALLY FUN??

Wearing fuzzy pajama pants!!

And slippers

And even a sweatshirt

To keep you warm in the winter

 

Oh I would wear sweatshirts

And long sleeved shirts

And pants

Outside in the blazing heat

Just to cover myself up

To hide my body

As much as possible

Even if it meant having a heat stroke

To do so

 

But inside the house

I wore as little as possible!

A giant T-shirt with plenty of air flow

Loose fitting anything of any kind

Because it was all about keeping me cool

Killing the blaze

And trying to keep my head above the flames

 

The heat works in my house

I know this

Because I turned it on

Something I have barely ever done

In 7 years

 

So that’s what I do

I hang out in the house

In my pajama pants

Bundled up

Enjoying the cold

Enjoying life

Outside of the furnace

 

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On a sidenote

I now fit on the couch

I’m telling you

The craziness around here

Just keeps on coming!!

 

Fitting in clothes

That’s nice

But stepping outside of the furnace

THAT’S SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!

 

If you, my friend

Are still in the fire

And you feel as if someone

Just cranked up the heat

Then I want you to know this

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

 

Many are with you

And while it seems that there is a wildfire

That has spread out of control

I can promise you this

There is hope

Because if I can find my way out of the flames

So will you

 

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Katrin January 3, 2013 at 11:42 am

Since I lost weight I have also been cold most of the time. I even have to wear socks to bed sometimes, which I never did before. My hubby says I have lost my insulation.
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MandaPanda January 3, 2013 at 1:20 pm

I lived in AZ for 17 years. I wore jeans in the summer because I hated the way my legs looked in shorts…talk about hot! 70 lbs later and a move to a more humid climate, I’m finding it hard to regulate my temperature. I go from freezing to sweating in matter of minutes. I’ll take this problem over being hot all the time though. In a heartbeat. 🙂
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Lee Ann January 3, 2013 at 1:45 pm

I would say that being cold is a GREAT non scale victory!!! Way to go girl!
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Denise January 3, 2013 at 2:08 pm

That is so awesome. I just recently found your blog. (from MFP) I have been telling everyone that I meet to read it. You are so inspirational. I have just lost 35 pounds. I went through my closet last night and got rid of a huge bag of pants. I am so happy to be rid of them. Thank you for helping to keep me motivated. I love hearing your stories. I especially liked today’s. I never wear skirts, unless I have shorts underneath so I don’t get the horrid rash. 🙂

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Donna January 3, 2013 at 2:17 pm

Another inspiring post Holly! I want to know when you are going to write your book? You are so talented, a God giveen gift, you really should be thinking if this. I a, so happy for you. Donna

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Lady Amanda January 3, 2013 at 2:55 pm

Awesome! Love the fuzzy pants! so happy to get to wear stuff that you like now!

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Tess January 3, 2013 at 3:12 pm

Aren’t fuzzy jammies fun?! I’m not sure if most people understand that question, but I do and you do, too!! FUN JAMMIES!!! 😀 Thanks for the smile today!

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Daphne @ Daphne Alive January 3, 2013 at 3:30 pm

I remember trying to find t-shirts in the winter is SO hard! I would be so warm, there was NO way I was wearing a long-sleeved shirt, let alone a sweater!

I live up north, and I find myself absolutely debilitated by the cold! I remember being able to run around in the winter with a zip-up hoodie and sneakers, and now I need 2 pairs of socks, a sweater, coat, scarf and then I’m frozen still after I get in.

One thing is nice though, it’s such a privilege to be able to swear slippers, fuzzy socks and a full set of pajamas! I used to wear shorts and a tank top in the winter time in my house. It’s so nice to get into cozy warm gear!
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Lori January 3, 2013 at 3:42 pm

I never was that hot. I did however start freezing when I lost 92 pounds. I even went to the doctor. He checked my thyroid to be safe but said he suspected that I was cold because I wasn’t wearing that coat of fat anymore.

I stabalized some over the summer and then started regaining weight. I’ve been cold for a few days now and I welcome it because now I understand what it means. I certainly don’t mind bundling up.

My biggest issue is drinking water when I’m cold. It just makes me colder! Oh well, it is a small price to pay.
Lori

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Staci January 3, 2013 at 4:12 pm

I can very much relate to this through my MIL. She is very close to 400 lbs and she always walks in my house and sets in on complaining that it is a furnace in here. She watched my kids one evening for 5 hours or so. I walked in and it was COLD in here… in the winter. Sure enough, my electric bill was up $10 stinkin’ dollars from it! LOL But I never say anything to her because I know it’s her weight that makes her hot. 🙁 Reading this just confirmed all that for me. Her poor husband is just barely overweight and is a diabetic and he freezes and bundles up all the time. A car ride just about ensues divorce for them. LOL
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Jack Sh*t January 3, 2013 at 4:13 pm

I hate to break it to ya, but you’re still hot. 😉
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Fee January 3, 2013 at 4:30 pm

Holly, I can totally relate, I have lost 95lbs and am freezing all the time! Last year I don’t think I wore my coat ( I live in NY) this year I have a down jacket that I wear everywhere!

Thanks again for reminding me of all the wonderful things (big and small) that come along with weight loss!

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Jill January 3, 2013 at 4:49 pm

I love the honesty of your writings. I’m still in the furnance.e head sweats like someone dumped a glass of water on it. I can’t imagine the day that stops. Another thing to shoot for. Thanks!

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Joonbug January 3, 2013 at 4:53 pm

I had to laugh. I read your post this morning and loved it! Then I was just texting someone about overeating, and my iphone autocorrected it to “overheating”. Ha! I had to come back here and share. Too funny!

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16blessingsmom January 3, 2013 at 7:08 pm

Holly, you have got to write a book! I have lost 70 pounds and I am freezing! ( We live in New York state and it was zero when I waited outside with the kids for the school bus.) Oh, the rashes and the powder and the sweating…you have totally encouraged me to stay out of the junk food and stick to plan!!! I have a long way to go, but you are such an inspiration! Thank you!

Della

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Pam January 3, 2013 at 10:19 pm

I too have gone from being too hot always, to now being too cold most of the time. Even in summer, when you go in certain restaurants and it is freezing, it is almost unbearable. For the winter, I bought warm flannel jammies to wear at night, and now that I’m retired, I spend all day every day this winter in a sweatshirt or sweater. In the evening in front of the TV, I have a space heater on me, and I always have a blanket or two on me. Crazy isn’t it? Crazy GOOD!
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Sarah January 3, 2013 at 11:10 pm

Congratulations Holly. That sounds like I pretty incredible NSV.
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Steelers6 January 4, 2013 at 5:35 am

Wow. That was interesting, a real eye
opener.
So happy for you & all your changes! And
just in time for those upcoming hot flashes!
Haha.
For anyone still dealing with rashes
and/or chub rub–a great product for this
is Body Glide. I use on my feet to prevent
blisters. It is great for runners. And
no powder cloud or need to reapply!
Chrissy

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joy January 5, 2013 at 6:16 am

Oh yes I know about hot and you have written about it so well. Although I still have a ways to go with my weight. Since keeping off 40 pounds for the last three years. I have notice a drastic change in my sweating and I feel cold! I wonder want it is going to feel like when we have all the weight we need to lose… But I look forward to finding out.
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Onuobasi Oluchukwu January 14, 2013 at 11:43 am

Most of the time I don’t make comments on blogs, but I want to mention that this post really forced me to do so. Really nice post!

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Living 400lbs May 1, 2014 at 12:33 am

Wow…I guess I’m not that fat? Or that Seattle is that much cooler!

I don’t tolerate heat easily, especially if I’m taking extra antihistamines for allergies. But in the War of the Thermostat at my house, I’m the one turning it up to 70 in the winter – hubby likes to set it to 64 & wear a sweater. Brr!
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R.lee September 28, 2014 at 4:31 pm

I know just what she is talking about I feel like I am on fire i just burn up everyday I have got to do something about my weight did you have surgery R lose it on your on

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NoelAnn February 25, 2017 at 11:00 pm

Thank you for this. We’ve had 70° weather on and off now and February in Philadelphia and it’s driving me fucking insane. Finally I’ve been spending the last few hours googling heat and obesity asking the question if I lose weight will I feel cooler and no one just comes out answers it. There are articles that say obese people have a lower body temperature well my normal body temperature when I’m feeling OK is a little below normal which is weird but that’s just the way I’ve always been. But that’s not what I was asking. Thank you for this post I know you posted a while ago but I’m perfectly healthy I have no problem being fat except it’s getting hotter with climate change and I can’t tolerate it any longer so I’m going to have to lose weight it’s not that I want to for any other reason but I’m just so fucking hot!

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