Finish the Game

January 31, 2013 in Uncategorized

Life happens

I used to say this to myself

All the time

In regards to the fact

That I had just eaten a Snickers bar

Followed up by a milkshake

Followed up by a Big Mac

Life happens

Doesn’t it?


I felt guilty

Foiled again!!

Diet ruined!

Off the rails once more!

But to combat the guilt

I would rewrite history

I would pretend that I hadn’t just

Eaten all of that

In some unplanned fashion

I would tell myself

I deserve to treat myself every now and then

As if that was the plan all along

And besides

I do deserve to treat myself!

Don’t you agree?


The next day

Things were tougher

I was just going to do it that one day

Just that one time

Yes I screwed up

But life happens


I can’t help that

I can’t make the rain stop

And the wind not blow

Life happens, you know??

Snickers bars happen!

Milkshakes happen!


I can’t control LIFE

I’m just some little stick figure

In a car

On the game board of Life

And someone out there

Is spinning the wheel

Of my fate

It’s not me!

I just landed on that space

And the card said

“Eat one Snickers bar and a milkshake”

So it isn’t my fault

Life happens


And now the third day

And guess what?

Life happened again….

In the form of a Quarter Pounder with cheese

And a Fish Filet Sandwich

Extra Tartar sauce please!


And a Coke

No diet this time

Give it to me straight

Fully loaded!

And give me the dozen cookies in a box

Oh a 13th one for free??



Things are getting bad now

I just hate it

When life happens

The guilt is washing over me

Drowning me

Why does this have to be so hard??


Trying to be perfect all the time


“No one is perfect”

I tell myself

This isn’t your fault

You were being unrealistic

You set the bar too high

Let’s just eat our food now in peace

And we’ll worry about this tomorrow

Tomorrow is another day, right?

Yeah that’s it…



Tomorrow never came

But next year did

And the year after

And the year after that

But tomorrow

It never showed up to play

Because the game of life

Rolled a Kit Kat bar

And after that

A Butterfinger


I was trapped in this game

For well over 20 years

If not most of my life

The game that would never end


Have you ever seen that movie


Alan and Sarah are kids

And they are playing this game

That turns REAL

Alan rolls the dice

And gets sucked into the game


Sucked into a  jungle

Where he has to live his life

Being chased by lions

And hunted

Like prey


For 26 LONG years

He lives inside this game

Because his friend got scared

And just closed up the game

And left

Leaving him trapped there


26 long years

Being hunted

26 long years

With no escape


It was a lot easier

For Sarah to just

Close up the game

And pretend it never happened

To make up some lie

Or story

Or fabrication

For why Alan disappeared

But at the end of the day

There was only one way

To truly free him





Sometimes I feel like Alan

Like I got sucked into a game

Where I had to exist

In a jungle

Where I was stalked

Day and night

By a vicious and merciless


Who wanted to kill me


That’s how it feels

When you are in the food

So deep in it

That every day of your life

Is like a deep dark jungle

With no escape


Like Sarah

I told myself lies

Things to make myself feel better

So I didn’t have to

Keep playing the game


I would tell myself things like

I deserve to treat myself

With the sugary poisonous foods

That I’m addicted to

That only serve to take me deeper

Into the jungle


I would tell myself

That trying to live a life

Sugar free

Life a life

Without Reeses

Just wasn’t realistic

And that I was putting too much pressure on myself

That my expectations

Were just too high

I would tell myself….






But tomorrow never came

Because I shut up the board game

And stuck it on a shelf

And just said

Life happens


Here’s the thing

Some of what I told myself was true

Things do happen in life

Out of our control



People die

You lose your job

Your house floods


And it’s not your fault

You just have to deal with it


And we DO deserve to treat ourselves!

Just not with poison

How about a pedicure?

Or buying yourself that book?

Or going to a movie?

Maybe you need to buy yourself some flowers

Or spend time reading all the scriptures

That tell you how much

God loves you

And wants to treat you too!


But 28 grams of sugar

In one snickers bar?

168 grams of sugar

In a large triple thick milkshake

From McDonald’s?

That wasn’t treating myself

That was SELF HARM


168 grams of sugar

Is not a treat

So if I’m going to do it

I’m going to call it what it is

And stop pretending

I’m doing myself

Some kind of favor


No one is perfect

OK that one is true

If you think you aren’t going to have days

Where you eat the wrong thing

Including the milkshake

Then you’re wrong

You probably will

I have


But once you’ve done it

Don’t tell yourself


Because trust me

Tomorrow never comes


Tomorrow is the same as

Slamming the Jumanji board game closed

And leaving Alan trapped in the jungle

For eternity


If you screw up

If life happens

If you realize you’re not perfect

And you roll a milkshake

Or a Big Mac

Well then be honest with yourself

Forgive yourself



Because tomororow is a lie

Tomorrow means never

Don’t put the game back in the box



There is only one way out of the jungle

And it will involve work

It will be scary

But it’s the only way to be free

And it’s this




I’m finishing my game

I know it’s not easy

I know it’s hard

I know life happens

And we’re not perfect


But finishing the game

Not waiting for tomorrow

It’s worth it

So get out your dice

And roll

Because this time

We’ll finish it




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Danielle January 31, 2013 at 6:47 am

Thank you.


CJN January 31, 2013 at 9:23 am

Beautiful post. 🙂
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Linda Kuil January 31, 2013 at 12:38 pm

Unfortunately the game never ends. I think some people think that once they lose the weight, they are done, but that’s not true. You now have to work at maintaining the loss, which means continuing to make the right choices or rolling the dice.
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annamarie January 31, 2013 at 1:38 pm

Wonderful post, thank you for the insight.

Many hugs
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Lee Ann January 31, 2013 at 2:06 pm

Good post Holly. I would love to hear what you think about the ban in New York on the big sodas. Do you think that this “self harm” food needs to be banned? What about king sized bars? Are they necessary? I have my feelings but would love to hear yours!!
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Jen January 31, 2013 at 2:14 pm

I like this one Holly. I sooooo can relate. I’ve played this game–still playing it! And it’s not a fun one to play. I love the truth you say “Tomorrow is a lie. Tomorrow means never.” Old habits die hard, but they can die and new ones can be formed. Thanks for the reality check and inspiration!:)
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Jenn January 31, 2013 at 2:33 pm

Thank you for this post – this is just what I needed to hear today!


Katie January 31, 2013 at 2:45 pm

I’ve played that game many times too. Oh and congrats on getting under 200!!
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Tasha Cantrell January 31, 2013 at 3:20 pm

Great way of explaining this! I WILL finish this game! I am SO close! If I mess up, I will roll again…not wait until tomorrow or put my game back on the shelf! Thanks again!


Darcy January 31, 2013 at 3:55 pm

I love this!
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Michele Moore January 31, 2013 at 3:58 pm

Brilliant! Just brilliant.
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Lisa January 31, 2013 at 5:48 pm

Excellent post Holly! I had a bad day the other day and needed to break a $20 bill and get ones. I could of just gone into a store but ‘of course’ I was running a bit late so I decided to go through the Jack In The Box drive-thru. BIG mistake! I ordered a diet coke, then a shake, then the 5 brownie bites they were offering on special but, and this is a BIG win for me, I ate only one of the brownies, had a tiny bit of the shake and then THREW IT ALL AWAY!! Yes! I wasted the money but my gosh, I actually did NOT eat the crummy calories! Yeah me! Thanks for your awesome blog – it really inspires me!


Pam January 31, 2013 at 6:08 pm

Lisa, that is an awesome victory–to throw away the shake and not eat all the brownie bites. We can slip, but we can also catch ourselves in that same slip, and make the best of it. NEVER GIVE UP!
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JRD January 31, 2013 at 5:51 pm

Holly, you are a delight. This is an awesome analogy – and I freakin’ LOVE Jumanji!! What a great way to look at it – I’m so glad you’re still blogging and not letting those hateraters get you down. Mean people suck – but you are WINNING the game!!! I have been feeling really great about my nutrition lately, but this just gives me more inspiration to keep going – especially what you said about putting sugary POISONOUS food into our body – you are absolutely correct. This is SELF HARM. Period. Rock on with your bad self, babe – you are a rock star!


Pam January 31, 2013 at 6:06 pm

For some reason this time I thought I HAD finished the game. I got to my goal, I’ve kept it off for 21 months (and counting), and yet now I find myself struggling and needing to drop a few pounds that I’ve put back on (altho still below my goal weight—this close to goal is NOT where I want to be), and I realize the GAME will never be over. Not for us food addicts. We need to play the game every single day of our lives. I read about Nell over at Spark, who has kept her weight off for 40 years, she still has to hustle by the Reece’s display at the grocery stores.
But I’m determined. I know the rules of this game, I just need to get back in that place I was for so long….that place where I FOLLOWED the rules 100%, instead of 90% like I’ve been doing lately.
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Julie February 1, 2013 at 12:39 am

Wow! What an incredible analogy. It is so easy to pack up and go home. But that isn’t enough. We have to play through. I’ve enjoyed reading your posts!
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Trish @I_am_Succeeding February 1, 2013 at 1:46 am

You are amazing!!!
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Kati February 1, 2013 at 2:51 am

Thanks so much for this post–so powerful.
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Amanda February 1, 2013 at 4:51 am

Great analogy! Awesome post, as usual it was very insightful.

I know it’s selfish, but I am so glad that you walked this road before me, Holly. God is using you to blaze the trail, to show me that He can do for me what He did for you. Thank you for allowing Him to use you, and to share it with the world! WE NEED YOU!

I am sorry you have had the pain of obesity. But I am so glad you are using it for GOOD!


Nicola February 1, 2013 at 5:44 am

Thanks for a great post Holly on a day I really needed to hear that the far fabled ‘tomorrow’ never actually comes! It’s today that counts. I recently re-watched Jumanji and realised that the guy who plays Alan’s dad also plays the hunter. So he was trapped in the jungle with what he most loved and most hated at the same time! That is SO my relationship with food. Also, many congratulations on reaching ‘Onederland’, you’re a superstar 🙂


Vanessa February 1, 2013 at 11:33 am

Great Post!! Thank you for this. It is the truth – finish the game.


Cathy February 1, 2013 at 4:43 pm

Holly, It really is life in America. No matter if we have a weight problem or not we are use to feeding our bodies in this way. My husband is thin, he doesn’t think a thing about having a big mac with fries and a shake, followed up with a candy bar at snack time. We grew up frying chicken in lard, fried potatoes, and lots of biscuits and gravey, we have no idea how to properly feed our bodies. We do need a game of life to teach us the proper way to eat. Welcome to the apple orchard pick 1 apple…Go straight to the vegetable garden, pick 2 greens and 1 red vegetable… Welcome to the fish pond….pick 1 serving of your choice….. AWWWWE, I fell in french fries land,,Go Straight to jail! ! I’m glad I changed the game, it’s much healthier to finish!


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