Christmas Victories and Giveaway Winner!

December 26, 2012 in Uncategorized

Another Giveaway is in the works for January!

The Giveaway winner for December announced at the end of this page!

 

Every year on Christmas Eve

We bake cookies

And leave them for Santa

That means

I eat them

I mean what choice do I have right?

It’s not my fault someone invented this tradition

But as a good mother

I need to follow through with it

Cookies…Santa…Milk

I even have a special little plate we leave out

“Cookies for Santa”

Am I going to ruin the fun of Christmas?

 

I am addicted to sugar

If sugar was an illegal drug

I would have been

Hobbling down some dark alley

To obtain it

Meeting with my dealer

Down some stairwell off a back street

In the dead of night

To buy my white powder in a baggie

For whatever the cost

Hobbling because I could barely walk

From what it had done to me

 

But when I’m eating sugar

I’ll do most anything to get more

I wonder sometimes

With the closing of Hostess

If there aren’t people doing this very thing

Exchanging twinkies in some darkened basement

For cash

And I never forget

How that could easily be me

TOMORROW

If I allowed myself to minimize the devastating effects

It has on my life

 

Cookies for Santa

What a sweet tradition

What a deadly decision for me

Because will it end at one cookie?

Or will this be the time

I get lost in it

 

It’s not worth the risk

And I know that

So I decide to buck the system

No cookies for Santa

And now I’m the Grinch….

 

My son is the youngest

He doesn’t quite get that leaving cookies for Santa

Is the equivalent

Of leaving out drugs for a drug addict

The addict being me

That his Mom might end up sneaking through the hallways

To eat them herself

And fall headfirst down the rabbit hole

That took Alice to Crazy Town

 

But I consider it

Because I want my son to be happy

I want him to have the same memories

The others had

The same fun

 

 

It’s so hard to live inside my brain

The little devil on one shoulder

The little angel on the other

Both of them screaming at me

Telling me what to do

And what to NOT do

 

But this year I know something new

I know that the way I eat now

Is not some temporary “diet” I am on

Something I am doing until I hit a certain number

It’s just how I live

It HAS to be

To remain free

 

So knowing that means

I can’t take a day off

I can’t just decide to eat cookies

Because it’s a Christmas tradition

I can’t just decide to take time off

For the holidays

 

Because taking time off from the way I live

Would be like taking time off

From being a Mother

Taking time off

From paying my mortgage

Can I do that because it’s the holidays?

Can I tell the kids I’m not going to be their mother

Because it’s Christmas?

Can I tell the water company

I’m not going to pay my bill

Because it’s the holidays?

 

No these are things you don’t take time off from

Because you can’t

You’re committed to parenting your kids

No matter what

Holidays, sick days, “don’t feel like it” days

You just can’t skip out

That would be like saying

It’s not that important

Or it’s important

But not enough to stick to it

Over the holidays

 

This way of eating

Is now my life

Its non negotiable

Like being a Mom

Like parenting

Like paying the mortgage

This is my life

Because this is where freedom lies

And I won’t give that up

Not even for Santa

 

I used to view it as a punishment

Having to refuse sugar

And cookies

And cake

But I don’t see it that way now

If someone offered me poison

Or something I was allergic to

Would I view refusing it as a punishment?

NO

I would view it as a blessing!

And that’s how I view this

 

Yesterday I denied myself

Cinnamon buns

Cookies

Candy

And all the sugary foods that used to mean

Christmas is here

And you know what happened?

I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT

And I never thought THAT day would come!

 

But there is power in it

Because you know that there are other things out there you can eat

There are other options

Better options

So why poison yourself with the very venom that is trying to kill you?

Sticking to the plan on the holiday

Means this is no longer a ‘plan’ or a ‘diet’ or a temporary fix

It means this is my life

This is my freedom

And not even a man in a red suit can take it from me!!

 

My son left this letter for Santa on the table

I thought it was cute!!

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Here I am with my older girls

Christmas morning

In our matching Christmas pajamas!

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This is the first time

That I have ever been able to do this

To buy matching pajamas to wear with my kids

I’ve always wanted to

I’ve often admired the pictures I see posted of others doing this

But it was certainly not something I could ever do

UNTIL THIS CHRISTMAS!!

 

We walked into a store

We saw matching outfits

We picked up one in each size

And we did it as if it was

A totally normal thing to do

ME

Finding MY size

In the same area

This is crazy!!

I could barely believe it happened!

 

Here are the kids

Christmas morning

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Here they are opening presents

CJ looks pretty happy

In spite of the fact

That no cookies were left for Santa

It appears he isn’t scarred for life after all!

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Being a single mom

Means no father to drive them to the store

To help them pick out presents to give me

On Christmas

But my kids have never let that stop them

They are resourceful

And they make things for me

And you know what?

I will treasure them more

Than anything they could ever have bought in a store!

I hope next year when Savannah can drive

That they will stick to the homemade creations instead

Because they bring me joy!

 

This is what Annabelle, Charlotte, and CJ made me this year

A motivational scrapbook of sorts!

And I LOVE it!!

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Savannah gave me this poem which I love!

 

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And this year I gave a present to MYSELF!

A 5 mile walk!

You see…I woke up thinking to myself

 

It’s Christmas! You deserve a day off!Β 

Why Exercise? This is the perfect excuse not to!

But then my brother

Who has now lost 270 Pounds

Texted meΒ “Merry Christmas”

Followed by this picture of him and Beth

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And this one

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And this one

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And they looked pretty happy in those pictures

Accomplished

Victorious

 

I thought to myself

“Come on Holly…the presents are opened…there are 24 hours in this day…

You can’t take even 10 minutes for a walk?”

I mean it’s not like I’m saying “yes” to something bad

I’m saying “yes” to exercise

Yes to the very thing that has literally

Changed my life

 

Because even a short walk

Makes my knees and my hips feel better

So I decided I would not be defeated today

Today of ALL days

I will celebrate Christmas

With a gift to myself

And walk!

 

Annabelle came with me

And we threw on our Santa Hats

With the tiaras

Of course….

Because we ALL should have a tiara

And wear it proudly

We are sons and daughters of the King

So wear your crown

And walk in victory!!

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And that 10 minute walk

Turned into 5 miles!

Because once I got out the door

I remembered

This isn’t so bad!

 

And that’s always how it works

Getting out of the door

Is 90% of the battle!

Because once you do

You’re on your way to victory!

 

I hope your Christmas was special

Because you are very special to me!

I can’t believe the gift I have been given

Through the people I have met here

 

You all uplift and encourage me

And I hope you know

That even if your holidays did not go as planned

Tomorrow is another day

His Mercies ARE new every morning!

 

Holidays can be tough

For some they remind you of losses

For others they are filled with temptations

But regardless of where you’ve been

Today is a new day!

 

Remember that book my kids made for me

The cover says

“Never give up!”

So let’s keep going!

Let’s keep getting up when we fall!

Let’s take on that mountain

And climb right into the New Year!

Straight into 2013 together

Onto Victory!!

 

 

Congratulations to Madeline for winning the “I Love Coffee Giveaway!”

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If you didn’t win this time, there will be more to come so check back!

Another one in the works for January!

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Debby H December 27, 2012 at 3:54 am

LOVE the book!! What a wonderful treasure!!

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 6:20 am

Thanks Debby!

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Sara Thornton December 27, 2012 at 4:59 am

I love you, Holly! You remind me to do the right thing and that’s always what I need reminded of constantly ,every day.

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 6:19 am

THanks Sara!! I’ve been checking your blog for an update. Hope you write one soon!! I am cheering for you!

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Staci December 27, 2012 at 5:08 am

Possibly your best Christmas yet, and no cinnamon rolls even involved. Your mom would be SO proud of you right now! πŸ™‚
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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 6:19 am

Thanks Staci! And that comment about my Mom really made me smile. Thank you!

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Steelers6 December 27, 2012 at 5:49 am

Pretty sure I’m not the only one who
scrolled down before reading the post
to check if I won! Haha
Congrats to Madeline.

Holly, check out your waist in the girl pj
photo! And hurray for your first pair of
matching pjs! Y’all will be swappin clothes
before you know it. Won’t that be a fun
post to write!

I looooved CJ’s note to Santa!! Adorbs!!
And the special book…so sweet. Love it.

Great job on your walk.
Merry Christmas. It was over so fast!
Chrissy

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 6:18 am

Thanks!! Where is your blog link? I know you have one and when you comment it doesn’t link up to it for me and I can’t remember the blog address? Help! And Merry Christmas!!

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Steelers6 December 28, 2012 at 5:36 am

Nope, I’m just not “with it”; alas, no blog.
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But I do follow & ‘support’ several–guess
that counts for something.
Happy Friday. XO

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 28, 2012 at 5:48 am

That counts for a lot!! For some reason I thought you had one but I know you’ve been here pretty much from the start. So thank you so much!!

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Kelly December 27, 2012 at 9:48 am

Such an inspiring and uplifting story! Keep up the good work!

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 3:01 pm

Thank you so much Kelly!!

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Christine December 27, 2012 at 1:15 pm

What an awesome Christmas. No store bought gift could ever compare to the book your kids made you! Love the matching jammies, I thought you were one of the girls at first, you look great.
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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 3:01 pm

Oh thanks Christine!! What a compliment!

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julie December 27, 2012 at 2:31 pm

Wow! Your blog is my new favorite one. πŸ™‚ I LOVE the way you write and I love your family. Those homemade gifts are the BEST. You are a fantastic mom.
I especially love your faith that God will help you in everything. I believe the same thing and our struggles are similar with the sugar. Thank you for writing this blog and for being so encouraging.
I look forward to reading more and more.
Happy New Year!!

Julie

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 3:01 pm

Thank you so much Julie!! This made my morning to read this! I am so happy you stopped by and took the time to leave me this comment. I hope you have a wonderful day!

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Hollie December 27, 2012 at 2:38 pm

I am a little over 3 weeks sugar free, and I really struggled with whether or not I should make cookies on Christmas eve. We don’t do the Santa thing, but making cookies and baking is just a tradition that my kids expect. On Christmas eve, with some prayer and soul searching, I decided that I was strong enough. It was tempting at some points, but I held strong. No cookies are sweets are worth it right now. I AM that junkie sneaking down the back streets for a fix. I know exactly what you are talking about.

The scrapbook from your kiddos is just awesome! I know you will treasure that for years to come.

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 3:00 pm

3 weeks sugar free?! That is awesome!! To me about 3 weeks in is really the magic number where I start to feel some serious control going on. I think 3 solid weeks makes a difference and I’m sure that is why you were able to bake all those cookies and stay away from them. Isn’t it amazing how once you get it out of your system, you actually have a lot more strength to just not partake. At our friends house, they were baking cookies. All kinds of cookies and icing them too! I knew in my head that it would taste delicious but b/c I have been sugar free for awhile now I actually had the strength to say no and it wasnt even all that hard. I wish more people could experience the freedom this brings to you when it is not running through your veins!! Congratulations on that really awesome success!!

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Dottie December 27, 2012 at 2:47 pm

This brought tears to my eyes. Love the scrapbook and poem gifts. You look fabulous. I need to get to losing again. I even had weight loss surgery in 2009. Went from 403 to a low of 253. And now am back up to 300. 2012 has been a tough year emotionally filled with more loss than I could handle apparently. I am hoping 2013 will be better. I have got to get this weight back off and then some. Thanks for sharing such a wonderful post. Made me cry.

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 27, 2012 at 2:57 pm

Hi Dottie,
I am sorry to hear of your loss. Grief is so difficult. It can be frightening and debilitating. When I lost my mother and grandmother, I could barely keep myself away from food. It has been such a source of comfort for me through my life that fighting it while underneath grief and sadness makes it seem almost impossible at times. I know many people can understand that. You are so not alone! I am so sorry to hear of what you have gone through but I know there is hope. We can find ways to overcome it and there is a source of comfort out there even in our deepest grief that will work far better even than food! I can promise you that! I will keep you in my thoughts and let me know how you are doing. Also I want to say congratulations on your amazing weight loss. To go from 403 to 253 is amazing! Even if you are back up to 300, just think…you did not get back up to 403 or go to 450 or 500. I mean quite seriously those are all things that can happen. They could happen to me! So the fact that you have maintained a weight loss of that degree since 2009 is to me quite amazing. You do have strength b/c you are not gaining it all back. Thanks for coming by and visiting with me. I hope to hear from you again!! You can do it!

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Pam December 27, 2012 at 3:10 pm

Love the scrapbook from the kids. That Bible verse really speaks to me. I found it when I was heavy. I used to wake up with a twinge in my chest, sure I was having a heart attack, and lay there in the middle of the night terrified that I was dying. This Bible verse comforted me.
Also love the note that your son left for Santa. That chubby guy could use more sugar-free popsicles, anyhow!!

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Lady Amanda December 27, 2012 at 3:48 pm

The pic of you guys in the pj’s is my absolute favorite pic so far in your journey. I love it! Sooo cute. Am soo thrilled you guys had a wonderful Christmas! Congrats to the lady who won the giveaway- I hope she sends a pic of herself with the travel mug- that would be cool to see who won! Love this blog- loved the pics- and loved the fact that you guys made another great set of memories! Give my love to the kids! Wishing you a fabulous New Year! Love ya!

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Donna December 27, 2012 at 4:59 pm

Merry Christmas Holly and kids! When I first looked at the three girls

in their Jammie’s I thought it was your three daughters, you look so beautiful, I think your kids are the cutest kids, just want to hug them. Enjoy. Donna

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Patrick December 27, 2012 at 5:27 pm

Lots of support wrapped in love you have from your family. Curious, did Santa take a chicken leg, or, a wing?
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Jane T. December 27, 2012 at 5:48 pm

I think you are very special, too! YOU uplift and inspire Me! Thank you for your beautiful post and blessings to you in the new year. Jane

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Lori December 27, 2012 at 6:21 pm

What a great perspective on the whole diet & weight loss thing. I love it!

I also love the scrapbook. It brought a tear to my eye. You have got fabulous children.
Lori

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elizabeth December 27, 2012 at 8:30 pm

This is a great post!!!! Love the matching Jammies πŸ™‚
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Chris December 28, 2012 at 4:36 am

Thank you so much for sharing. I love reading your blog. You are a true inspiration!

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Linda Kuil December 28, 2012 at 11:56 am

I’m so glad you had a fabulous Christmas!
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Caron December 28, 2012 at 12:57 pm

What a great post! I love the picture of you and the girls in matching pj’s especially. Awesome. πŸ™‚

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 28, 2012 at 1:37 pm

Thanks Caron!

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Jane December 29, 2012 at 11:25 pm

Holly:
You’re looking fantastic! I remember back when you’d “only” lost 148 lbs. That’s when I started stocking you. (Well, that sorta sounds creepy.) I just want you to know, that because of you, I didn’t repeat my pathetic behavior of last year. Last year I gain 30#’s between Halloween and the New Year. I lost that 30 and I’ve maintained it, I haven’t gained an ounce this year (during the holidays) because (although I don’t comment often, I read all the time) I read what you have to say and I take your advice and I’m taking far better care of myself than I was, because I’m worth it. And I realize that because I’ve learned from you. Thanks for keeping your blog open for all to see. You’re brave and smart and you inspire me. Thanks!

Best wishes for the BEST ever NEW YEAR!
Jane

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down December 30, 2012 at 12:01 am

Oh my gosh! This made me cry! Thank you so much for telling me this. You have no idea how happy it makes me. IT really really does!!! I am so super proud of you. Believe me when I say I know how tough that is to do. I also would usually gain 30 pounds during that time. Easily! This is wonderful!! Yeah!! I am so excited and happy for you! Thank you for telling me this!

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Sarah December 30, 2012 at 1:18 am

Another beautiful post and more inspiration from your fantastic children.

However, you have done some serious shrinking of late girl … well done you xx
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Leigh Costa December 30, 2012 at 3:16 am

You look awesome Holly! And what gorgeous children you have:) Happy New Year!!!!!!
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Amanda December 31, 2012 at 5:47 am

Loving the last few posts, very awesome! Looks like you had a very blessed Christmas with your wonderful family.

Maybe next year instead of cookies for Santa you could leave some carrot sticks, celery sticks, or apple slices for the reindeer. After all, they are doing a LOT of exercise, pulling that sleigh all over the world, some carrots or a sliced apple might do them some good. πŸ˜‰

Merry Christmas! I am so excited to see what this year brings, for you and your family!

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Diane December 31, 2012 at 4:22 pm

Oh my goodness,
You are amazing! What a wonderful gift you have given your children, to have their mama truly be here with them as they grow. Being a recovering addict means that you can finally value relationships with people over elationships with your drug of choice, and look how they are thriving as a result of your choosing them over sugar.

The book from them made me cry. It’s so wonderful to be so loved.

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