This one is going to be different. You know I usually write things in this one line format. I don’t know why. I just started doing it and it seemed to be an effective way to communicate lol. But today I’m going to write to you in the same way I’d write to my best friend, Amanda. I’m just going to write. Consider this a personal email from me to you. I’m not thinking before writing .I’m just writing to my friends. I consider you my friends and I hope you consider yourself mine . It may be a strange friendship I admit. We don’t know each other in real life. We’ve never seen one another except in pictures but I love you anyway. And today I just need your prayers. So I hope it’s ok that today I just write you an email from me to you. Most of you know I lost my mom not too long ago. I’m going to share something personal with you . My family is small. Very small. All that is left is me, my brother and my Nana (my mom’s Mom). There is also my Dad and his wife who I have a great relationship with as well. One day I’ll write to you about my father. For a long time he wasn’t in my life. That’s a story unto itself. But for now, I want you to know that most of my life it was just me, mom, Lee (my brother) and my Nana. That was it. And I’ve lost my mom.
My Nana is 90. She paid for my weight loss surgery. In the last 10 months I’ve lost 160 pounds and regained my life. So you can imagine that she is important to me. But now she is in ICU. And I don’t know what’s going to happen. It was all so sudden and yet all too familiar. Lee called me and left a voicemail saying “It’s important. Call me right away”. I will never forget waking up to that same voicemail a few days after Christmas when it was about my Mom. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that any of them would die. Could die. It didn’t seem possible. And we are not even done dealing with my Mom’s estate. If my Nana dies too…you guys..it’s just too much.
I haven’t been posting every day for a few reasons. I’ve been a bit swamped at work. I can’t remember if I told you or not but I teach online. Well mostly I assist in an online class. And I grade. Writing. So I spend a ton of time grading papers for people who are taking classes online. And currently I have 43 papers to grade before Thursday. You guys, I am SO blessed to work from home. I prayed for that a LONG time. So I’m happy but swamped at the same time. Then I found this out about my Nana and it has me stressed. Don’t worry—not eating stressed–but still stressed. And a bit depressed.
Anyway, today I just wanted to write to you the way I would write Amanda. Just write out an email and ask for your prayers. I know God will not give me more than I can handle but in the last few years I’ve been feeling like He’s cutting it a bit close lol
I’ll keep you up to date if you want. But I just wanted to tell you what’s up. And I thank you in advance! You all have been such a beacon of light for me on this weight loss journey. Sometimes I think without you I might still be 417 pounds. There is a lot to be said for encouragers!!
Love you all,