Whatcha Doin’ Wednesday is me giving you a snapshot of a week in my life. From last Wednesday to this Wednesday.
So here’s what we’ve been doing this week.
My daughter, Savannah, and her boyfriend, Tanner, went to a big dance
She wanted to put hair extensions in her hair for fun
But she needed my help
It involved standing on my feet for over 30 minutes as we created this hairstyle
Something I could not have done before
It would have been too physically exhausting
It doesn’t seem that it would be that tiring, right?
You can always sit in a chair
But trust me…it’s harder than you think when you weigh over 400 pounds
And have no energy left to give
So I didn’t have to pull up a chair
I could run back and forth
I could just be “MOM”
Helping my daughter do her hair for the dance
That’s a memory I never would have had
Except for the journey that’s brought me here
If you’ll remember, my daughter Annabelle became very sick with tonsillitis this past Sunday
I had to rush her to the Emergency Room.
She felt like her throat was closing up
And the Urgent Care clinic thought she might have an abcess
We had to race from one end of the hospital to the other to get a CAT scan
And I was so grateful that I had the energy and stamina to run with them
Because 10 months ago that was an impossibility
So here we are a week or so later
And she is doing so much better!
We had our follow up today with the ENT
And it was pouring down rain
We had to park far away
And walk in the rain
That can be a potentially slippery situation for anyone
But when you’re over 400 pounds it can be impossible
You can barely walk and IF you fall
You know you will NOT be able to get up again without help
Because you literally don’t have the ability to pull your own body weight back up off the ground
Kind of like when I got stuck in the tub
But instead of cancelling her appointment because it was raining
And it didn’t matter that we had to walk half a mile from the parking lot to the building
In the rain
Or that we had to walk down 2 long hallways to get to the office
Because when we got there
I FIT IN THE CHAIR
It is SO amazing to take my children to the doctor and FIT in the chair
In the past I had to stand
They would always say “Have a seat!”
And I’d say “No it’s ok. I like to stand”
Because I didn’t want to say “I can’t fit in your chair”
When in reality I was dying to get off my feet
But on this day I FIT
Savannah (my oldest) still came with me
Because she wasn’t about to let me go out in the rain without her
Too afraid I might fall and not be able to get up again without help
It’s still taking us both time to get used to the idea that I can actually handle things
Pretty soon Mom will be all grown up!
Able to maneuver and go places without assistance!!
But she’s not ready for that yet….
I’m still the child going out past curfew in her eyes
Going out without a chaperone
Because I need constant assistance
But things are changing
Annabelle had an excellent follow up
She’s 100 times better!
And for now she gets to keep her tonsils!
But now on for the exciting news of the day!
After we left the doctor, we walked down to the restroom
No big deal, right?
Except that it was a VERY big deal
Because in every restroom there is ONE handicapped stall
It’s always oversized and large
But there is only ONE
And this is mine
The one I have to go in
Because as much as I hate to admit it
I couldn’t fit in a normal stall
It’s not glamorous I know
Talking about toilets!
But it is what it is
And if it is full then you wait
Because there may be 10 normal stalls free
But there is only ONE that fits me
The handicapped stall
Only the stall gets bigger
NOT the toilet seat
But you take what you can get
On this very day
I FIT IN A REGULAR STALL
I could walk through the door that was normal sized
AND I FIT
Walking into a NORMAL bathroom stall and fitting
It’s been at least 4 years since I’ve done that
I can’t even describe what it’s like to walk into a bathroom and NOT have to wait for the only stall you need to open up
To have your choice available!
If there are 10 regular sized stalls…well I can take my pick!!
I know it’s weird to be this excited over a toilet
But pop the cork
This is cause for celebration!!
My girls and I were giggling and cheering
Giving each other Hi-5’s
Because Mama can fit in the stall !!
Don’t you know right about then someone walked in the door
As we were having a group hug and almost crying
I’m sure they wondered what was wrong
When in reality
It was what was…RIGHT….SO RIGHT!!
If that wasn’t enough to already make my week
My kids gave me an early Mother’s Day Present
A necklace they picked up at a craft fair
And they said it reminded them of us
Savannah said I’m the big heart in the center
And they are the 4 hearts surrounding it
Does it get any better than that?