Whatcha Doin’ Wednesday: March 21,2012

March 20, 2012 in Uncategorized

Whatcha Doin’ Wednesday is me giving you a snapshot of a week in my life. From last Wednesday to this Wednesday.

My older two were predisposed with various and sundry social activities all week because it was Spring Break.  The older two are 16 and 11.  Their social calendar is full these days!

So it was just me and “the babies” who are really getting tired of me calling them that. They are 7 and 8 years old now. So I guess they aren’t “the babies” anymore. It’s just that I have my older set and my younger set and the younger two are so close together that most people think they are twins.

So we started calling them the “babies” when they actually were babies and it stuck. But I have to really stop doing it before they’re 23 and 24 and still being referred to as “the babies”!!!

So on a whim, I decided to take my younger two out for lunch.  Oh wait a minute…did I just say on a whim? Let me think of how many times in the past 5 years I’ve done anything on a whim.  When you weigh over 400 pounds, you do NOTHING and I mean NOTHING on a whim.  Everything has to be planned out in advance very carefully.  You have to know where you’re going and if it’s a big enough space for you to fit into.  Not to mention the amount of time and energy it takes to physically get  up and go in the first place.

But this week we did that impossible thing.  We did something on a whim!!

I took Charlotte and CJ to Cracker Barrel.  This is a place I have always loved to go not so much for the food (although that is certainly one reason) but rather the atmosphere and the store.  You already know about my obsession with Homestead Handcrafts.  Cracker Barrel is one of those places that I love to browse in for similar reasons.  There is always something unique there that I would not see anywhere else. 

I should say I USED TO love going there because it has been years since I’ve stepped inside of one.  In fact, I have never been inside of a Cracker Barrel the entire 6 years I’ve lived in San Antonio.  For one thing, I could no longer fit in the rocking chairs out front. 

And that was part of the fun.  (What can I say…I’m easily entertained!)

But guess who fits in the rocking chair now???? That’s right! I’m rockin’ now!!

But there is another reason why I stopped going to Cracker Barrel years ago and I bet you can guess. I talk about it so often that you probably already know.

THE CHAIRS

Have you seen cracker barrel chairs?

Now does that look like a sturdy chair to you? One that can hold a 400-450 pound woman?

My obsession with chairs comes to me through my personal experience in breaking them. Repeatedly. And I’m not about to risk doing that in public.

But there I was face to face with my enemy–the chair. I still wiggled it and tested out how sturdy it was before sitting down. My usual routine. And then I went for it.

Now as you will see I’m still spilling out of this chair.  I’m literally still just BARELY able to fit on it even after losing 141 pounds which you can see in the video.

BUT I am on it. And it didn’t break.  And I didn’t live in fear for the 45 minutes of sitting on it that I might end up crashing on the floor like that scene out of Shallow Hal.

I mean Cracker Barrel has some small chairs.  And that is me sitting on one after losing a good bit of weight so you can only imagine what it would have been like before–impossible.  I still need to lose another 100 before I really fit.  But that is just the point about me and chairs.  We have been at odds for a long time.  THEY are what would keep me out of so many places.  From businesses to people’s homes.  Chairs and I have history.

I noticed Cracker Barrel has a low carb menu now which is helpful.  I still went with my safety food which is plain baked chicken.  I didn’t eat the sides or the cornbread or the hush puppies.  Which to be honest virtually cancels out the whole reason I used to love to eat there.

But this day it wasn’t about the food.  It was about the CHAIRS.  And in that battle, I won!

I also love to browse in their store but there is a problem.  Almost everything there is breakable AND has narrow spaces to walk in.  Well it might not be narrow by someone else’s standards.  But when you are over 400 pounds you have to be VERY CAREFUL walking in between shelves.  You can very easily knock things off.  I’ve done it before.  Many times.

I think we’ve all heard “you break it you buy it”.  That fear has kept me out of many places such as this.

A 400-450 pound person does not walk in these spaces by big glass balls and porcelain plates unless they want to knock every bit of it off as they go and have a huge bill waiting for them when they leave. On top of the humiliation.

But not this time!! The kids and I had a blast looking at everything together. And of course I was able to enjoy it because I wasn’t afraid of knocking things off AND my feet and back were not in excruciating pain just standing there.

Here is Charlotte with the jack in the box toy. She got startled when it popped OUT!

CJ finding his inner Urkel (and I promise we weren’t being loud!!)

They enjoyed this checker board so much I bought one for our house

Here they are playing it at home in the living room

And this one cracked me up. CJ played Annabelle when she got home and he had on his game face! He takes his checkers seriously!

Later that day, we went to Walmart. And I know this seems like just another small thing. It’s not climbing Mt. Everest, right? So what’s the big deal?

I guess the big deal is that EVERYTHING is a big deal these days. I was practically housebound in many ways because going virtually anywhere became a nightmare. And now it’s as if the world has opened back up for me.

You see my “babies” always wanted to ride in that double seat Walmart cart. Seems simple, right? But it wasn’t because that thing is kind of heavy and takes some effort to push. And I did not have the strength or energy to push it.

The truth is I had to have a cart to lean on. To use as a walker. I couldn’t even ride in the motorized carts because I could not FIT in those chairs. So I pushed the cart and leaned on it for support. I could not do that with the double seat carts. It’s heavier and you have to work to push it with a 7 and 8 year old riding in it!

But this time was different. They finally got to ride in it!! They are almost too big to really do it but it’s something they have been wanting to do for awhile and the last few years I just couldn’t do it.

But not this time!!

I pushed that cart all over the place and didn’t break a sweat. I wasn’t using it as a walker for myself. I was using it AS A SHOPPING CART instead of something to lean on because of the back pain.

This week was really just full of the little things. But it is in the little things that I find so much happiness.

Knowing that I can do things again that for so many years were off limits.

And I appreciate every single bit of it!

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RockBand Barbie March 20, 2012 at 5:31 pm

I am the baby of my sisters and my mother still refers to me as "the baby" at times…and I am 41! Call them the babies as long as you want…some day they will appreciate the fact that they are your baby 🙂

Cracker Barrel originated right here in Tn!! I love it too, but you are right…the chairs are small. So happy for you all of your NSV's this week!

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Anonymous March 20, 2012 at 5:49 pm

Holly,
Congratulations! I am 430 pounds and am set for surgery in april. I have a trip to Disneyland planned for December and I hope the trip will go well. I have a dislike of flying because of the shame of asking for a belt extender. I fly business class so that I have extra room. That is a victory I am praying to be able to celebrate on that trip.

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~TMcGee~ March 20, 2012 at 5:56 pm

These are some wonderful NSV's, Holly 🙂 I'm so happy for you, the radiance just beams from your posts and from the smiles on your "babies" faces. 😀

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~Lori~ March 20, 2012 at 5:59 pm

Your kids are adorable! Mine are just the opposite of yours—the older 2 are close (13, 15 but only 16 months apart), and the younger 2 are 10 and 7. We refer to the older 2 as "the girls", and the younger 2 as "the littles", lol. (They're all girls) Funny the things that stick.
Yay for facing and beating another fear! Congrats to you!

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mommykinz March 20, 2012 at 6:45 pm

Yeah – I love Cracker Barrel!! What a great day. Your kids are so comical, love the stories.

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A Journey to a new me... March 20, 2012 at 7:08 pm

I'm incredibly happy for you…these are wonderful times for you. And just think, there are a gizillion more wonderful days ahead!

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Matt, Kara, Hunter and Cavan March 20, 2012 at 7:30 pm

I have never even heard of Cracker Barrel before, but I love the rocking chairs!

The other day I sat in a rigid office chair and noticed that I was seeping out the sides of it! Boy that was an exciting moment for me. I remember breaking a chair when I was in grade 9. Definitely one of the most humiliating moments in my entire life, so I can sympathize with you!!

Keep it up! You have almost caught up to me. 🙂

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Czesia March 20, 2012 at 7:42 pm

I love hearing your insights into what life was like/ is like now! I'm so glad that you commented on my blog, because now I've found one of a my new favorite blogs to read! Also, adding video is so awesome! I can't wait to read/ watch more!

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Brenda March 20, 2012 at 8:27 pm

I mom says we will always be her babies. One day I am going to drive down to San Antonio and we are going to go everywhere and sit in chairs and laugh because people will not know how much it means to us! I love that you are living again. I am so happy for you and your family.

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LoriBang March 20, 2012 at 8:44 pm

LOVE your posts! Glad you had such an awesome weekend! I SO hear you on using a cart for a walker! I did that frequently! Not anymore! Keep on rocking! Ha get it? Rockin?

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Banded With Favor March 20, 2012 at 9:39 pm

Those are not just NSV's for you!!! They are memories for your kids!!! Remember when Mom just took us to lunch!! Remember when Mom bought us the giant checkers game!!! Remember when Mom pushed us in the double cart at Wally World!!! Your week has been a double bonus and blessing!!! Win Win all around…great job!!

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Staci's Slimdown March 20, 2012 at 9:50 pm

Did I make you want to go to Cracker Barrel??? LOL 🙂
My oldest 2 kids are 12 months and 3 weeks apart. They get referred to as "the girls." Like you said, they are so close in age they get referred to as a team. The youngest 2 are 23 months apart. They get referred to as "the babies," which is starting to annoy my oldest 2 since the oldest "baby" is nearly 5 and the youngest is nearly 3. Not really babies anymore!! But they have their own category. How can I change that?? Ha!
Love seeing you in your chairs. You all have had a great time together this past week. So much fun! You should be so proud of yourself for getting rid of so many pounds and kicking butt NOW while your kids are young and you can make memories together. The rest of their childhood will be so much better of a memory for every single one of you. You go girl!

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alonewithcats March 20, 2012 at 10:31 pm

Your insights are making me think differently about the little things I take for granted. This is incredible. All of it. The chairs, the cart and most of all, the checkers. 😉

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Roux en Y Mitzi March 20, 2012 at 11:46 pm

Amazing my friend, enjoyed reading every moment. And wow what a transformation.
You must feel really proud of yourself 🙂

Love Mitzi x

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Frickin' Fabulous at 40 March 21, 2012 at 3:20 am

Congratulations on all of your non-scale victories this week! Cracker Barrel can be the devil with all of their fattening foods and treat-filled stores! Did you happen to get the quilt in your LR from Cracker Barrel? My s-i-l has the same exact quilt and I know she's an avid CB shopper (especially since she worked there in FL!). Sadly, we have no CBs in NY.

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Diane Fit to the Finish March 21, 2012 at 4:30 am

Thank you for sharing your life so honestly Holly. You will inspire a lot of people to lose weight and be able to more actively participate in their kids lives.

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Honeybee March 21, 2012 at 4:31 am

You are the biggest loser!! You don't know how much I'm inspiring just looking at your "before" and "after" picture.

Pls, can your share your success story in my blog?

-Honeybee
http://healthybeautifulblog.blogspot.com

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Alana Jo March 21, 2012 at 5:57 am

You are doing so well. What an inspiration! Thank you so much for stopping by my blog. I can relate to every word you wrote in this post. Chairs I have always hated and back pain.. oh the agony. I am so proud of you. Keep up the good work and I shall try my best as well.

Alana Jo
http://notsobigjo.blogspot.com/

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Stephanie March 21, 2012 at 6:23 am

This is really inspirational! Congratulations of your successes so far! This is one of the things that I love about blogging…people sharing their journeys and stories so openly and honestly.

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Manda's Mom March 21, 2012 at 11:22 am

Holly, you aren't going to believe this!!! I was just reading your CB story with the picture of you on the porch at Cracker Barrel rocking-to-beat-the-band, and what appears on MY porch? The big white Cracker Barrel rocking chair that I have wanted for years! It was bought for me by my sweetheart of almost 44 yrs as an anniversary gift, and it looks awesome on the porch! CB is one of my favorite places to eat, and I often purchase items from the gift shop. When I travel, I stop at CBs all along the way, and the people who work there are always glad to see me:) It's so nice to know we have similar taste! I'm so proud of you and your precious family! Love you!

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down March 21, 2012 at 11:38 am

Manda's Mom!! I am so excited you posted here. wow!! Thank you so much for all your kind words and card. I love you so much!! How cool about the cracker barrel rocking chair. I think I will get one too!!

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Holly from 300 Pounds Down March 21, 2012 at 11:39 am

To everyone–I am having Krizzy Designs re-do my blog so I can get my template fixed and reply to comments individually. I hope it will make my blog easier to read and comment on. I hope in a few weeks from now things will be running smoothly. Thanks to all of you who comment and leave me such kind words. I get so much inspiration from all of you!!!

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Andrea March 21, 2012 at 12:40 pm

Love this! Those cracker barrel chairs are so comfy! So glad you're able to sit in them and enjoy! I love that you are so appreciative of all you are able to do now and don't take the little things for granted anymore!

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Lady Amanda March 21, 2012 at 12:48 pm

Looks like you guys had a blast! I am totally up for a trip to CB when I visit. I can totally understand what you are talking about with the worry about breaking something- they cram soo much stuff in there- especially at christmas- there are christmas ornaments sticking out everywhere- and if someone walks into the area where you are shopping you are stuck with no way out- that is a crazy, yet fun place to go- am thrilled you get to go there now with the kids. The kids look like they were having fun- that is awesome. Am really enjoying the videos. Love it!

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Jessica @ Quirky Bookworm March 21, 2012 at 1:46 pm

Wow, well done on winning the chair battle! 🙂

I was a waitress at Cracker Barrel one summer in college…and I used to be a kind of afraid that the chairs would break under some people! We'd get this one huge guy (who always wore overalls). He came in at least 3x a week, and ordered 2 whole meals! That's 2 entrees + 6 sides. And he'd usually get dessert too. Nuts. But at least a chair never broke under him!

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Lisa March 23, 2012 at 9:06 am

Holly! I know Exactly what it is like to fear a chair. I am SO happy for you that you can fit in the rocking chair!!! That is a great accomplishment! That is one of my goals. To be able to sit in chairs with arms and not fear them or be afraid that the chair can't hold me. I am tired of looking at chairs and thinking those things.I am ready for my new life when I can go anywhere and know I will fit!!! 🙂 <3 you! thanks for all your inspiration!!!
~Lisa

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kristi March 25, 2012 at 3:06 am

I still call my 10 yr old the baby! Looks like a great day!

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trisha March 29, 2012 at 7:56 pm

your kids are so cute and happy and animated you would think they're little actors!!! LOL

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