The other day I was looking through the comments people had left me and then I hit a button.
I don’t know how it happened exactly. I just know that a second later I got a message that said this:
I tried to reverse it but apparently this is a “permanent action” that can’t be reversed.
Then I decided to try and change my template design. I’m not very good at anything technical and somehow when I changed my template I must have done something that now made it impossible for me to reply to any of the comments people leave!!
So now I get all these comments and I can’t reply to them. And some of the comments I received have all been deleted!
And the worst part is that I did it to myself!
It reminded me of the time I lived in Alaska.
I had 3 children and I was homeschooling.
I was 9 months pregnant with my son.
And I was finishing up my Masters degree.
Writing my 80 page thesis.
I was on page 74 when suddenly I hit a button and everything disappeared.
It was gone.
All 74 pages.
I thought I would go into labor right there from the pure shock!
I knew there was no way I could recreate 74 pages. I had barely made it that far to begin with.
Homeschooling. 3 kids. Pregnant. Cooking. Cleaning. And the Alaska winters where it’s dusk 24 hours a day.
I already felt like losing it.
That was it I supposed. End of the line. I’m going to be the only person to have completed all the classes and the exit exam and 74 pages of their final thesis…and then quit.
Because she was 6 pages to go to the finish line and one button deleted it all.
And there was no way my brain could fathom writing it all over again from scratch.
Because I had a C-section scheduled that Monday and then recovery.
And then a new baby.
On top of my 13 month old baby. And my 3 year old. And my 7 year old.
And homeschooling. And cleaning. And cooking.
And the 6 months of student teaching I was supposed to do that spring.
I just knew it was over.
But then my husband came home from work and did something magical to the computer.
And it restored all that was lost.
Somehow with the touch of a button, my paper was back.
I really never understood what happened to make it disappear.
Just like I didn’t understand what happened to make it reappear.
I just knew one thing.
It was restored!
This is so much like my life.
I can’t say exactly where I went wrong in my marriage. What exact button I pushed that made everything suddenly disappear.
I can’t say exactly where I went wrong with my weight. What exact moment I lost complete control and slid down into the endless pile of twinkies.
I just know this.
God is restoring me.
Maybe not always in the way I expect. But somehow with the touch of His hand….it’s being restored.
Unfortunately those 25 comments I deleted are still gone.
Along with the fact that I can’t reply to any of your comments
But I read them. And I know what they said.
They were full of encouragement and inspiration.
And the kind of amazing support that you never could imagine you would find on the other side of a computer screen!
And even though I’m sorry that you won’t see your comments on the page, I want you to know they are still in my heart.
And I’m probably going to just hire someone to re-do my template so I CAN reply to the comments you leave!
But maybe it’s time I put a big red sticker on the DELETE button!
Seriously??? I’ve really gotta stop doing this….:)