First thing I did this morning was jump out of bed and notice my knee was killing me for some reason.
There goes the icing on that cake!
I usually walk 3 miles in the morning but my knee was really hurting so I cut my walk short.
Now I have to listen to the conversation that goes on inside my head between two very different personalities who have nothing in common.
Part of me is falling into this self-loathing, ‘you’re a quitter’, ‘why do you bother’, ‘your knee is never going to get better’, ‘who cares anymore’ attitude.
While the other part of me is like ‘hey you still got out there!’, ‘way to go’, ‘something is better than nothing’, ‘chin up’ attitude.
The war going on between the whiny, depressing, complaining, negative side of me and the cheerleading, positive, motivating, ‘we can do this’ side of me is really loud today.
To add to the fun, I’m on a plateau.
So far I’ve lost 111 pounds which is pretty fantastic.
However, I’ve been hovering on the same number for awhile.
Anyone who sets out to lose weight will hit a plateau at some point.
Of course most people set out to lose like 20 lbs or maybe 50 so they MIGHT hit one or two plateaus before they reach goal.
Most people don’t set out to lose 300 pounds.
So in my case I get to hit plateau city quite frequently.
The good thing about this is that I no longer get intensely bothered by it.
It annoys me but it doesn’t make me want to quit.
I’ve already seen plateaus come and go.
I know to expect them.
I know to ignore them.
I know to have patience with them.
I know they come to an end.
This is a lot like life.
Things are going along and suddenly you hit a wall.
You’re at a standstill.
Nothing new coming your way.
Maybe you even go backwards (like in a plateau where you suddenly gain a pound).
In these moments, you want to yell NOT FAIR and quit.
These are the times the whiny, depressing, negative side of me overpowers the cheerleader side of me by drowning out her voice.
However, the cheerleader usually bounces back up and starts a pep rally.
She reminds me that the only way to really get through a plateau for the most part is to wait it out.
This goes for weight loss plateaus as well as the plateaus of life.
Be patient. Ride the wave. And remember that it will end.
One day you’ll wake up and realize the plateau is over.
Lately, I’ve been hanging onto Psalm 46:10 —-“Be still and know that I am God”.
Sometimes that is all you can do.
Just be still and remember Who is in control.
I can get so desperate for progress that I don’t care what direction I’m going in..forward or backward.
Just so long as something is happening.
For example, this logic–If the scale isn’t moving then I might as well eat brownies.
In other words, something MUST happen.
Either I’m losing or I’m gaining but I cannot be maintaining.
I cannot have a standstill.
Either I will make progress or I will destroy progress but I will not wait patiently at a crossroads.
No thank you.
Sometimes I have to be content for the moment and just wait it out.
In the stillness of life when things aren’t happening or going my way, I am learning to be content with what I have and let it be enough.
Not because the “IT” that I have is enough…but because the God that I have is enough.
Phillipians 4:19 “And God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus”